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Do not resuscitate
MVO: No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it. Eventually the lies fall away. MVO: But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. (Derek looks on after her for a bit and then heads back into the trailer) MVO: So we lie. (Dr. Bailey gestures and walks off. Meredith lets the door close behind her and surveys the room about to walk to Dr. Shepard. She stops abruptly. Dr. Shepard is Derek from this morning with other doctors!!!! She stands frozen. Dr. Shepard takes a glance at his chart, sees Meredith and turns back to his chart. He then does a double take. Meredith scurries back the way she came. Dr. Shepard shocked is still staring at the spot where she was standing.) (Cut Meredith walking down a hallway. Dr. Shepard comes up behind her and pulls her into an empty stairwell) MEREDITH: Dr. Shepard. DR. SHEPARD: Dr. Shepard? This morning it was Derek. Now its Dr. Shepard? MEREDITH: Dr. Shepard we should pretend it never happened. DR. SHEPARD: What never happened? You sleeping with me last night? Or you throwing me out this morning. (He is very amused.) Because both are fond memories I'd like to hold onto. MEREDITH (serious): No. There will be no memories. I'm not the girl in the bar anymore and you're not the guy. (Dr. Shepard is smiling) This can't exist. You get that, right? DR. SHEPARD (nods): You took advantage of me and now you want to forget about it. MEREDITH: I did not take.. DR. SHEPARD (interrupts): I was drunk, vulnerable and good looking and you took advantage. MEREDITH (smiling): Okay I was the one who was drunk and you are not that good looking. DR. SHEPARD: Maybe not today. Last night? Last night I was very good looking. I had my red shirt on. My good looking shirt. You took advantage. MEREDITH: I did not take advantage. DR. SHEPARD (smiling): Want to take advantage again? Say Friday night? (Meredith is a little shocked) MEREDITH: No. You're an attending. And I'm your intern. (Dr. Shepard looks like he wants to kiss her) MEREDITH: Stop looking at me like that! DR. SHEPARD: Like what? MEREDITH (adamant): Like you've seen me naked. (He's smirking now) MEREDITH: Dr. Shepard! This is inappropriate. (Dr. Shepard seems confused) Has that ever occurred to you? (Dr. Shepard sighs as Meredith leaves the stair way) HHAHAHAHHA!!! ROFLMAO!!!!! Hmm. Sunday. I didnt go for the movie in the end. Cos the twins were at my house and yeah. Me and Steph stayed home to baby sit them. Uh huh. So yeah. Brought them down to Macs to eat french fries. So adorable!! :DDD HAHAHA. Joshie got stuck in between the chairs. So scary I tell you. Couldnt get him out. Luckily this lady came to help me. Yeah. Then we went to the playground. The green slide is really very fun okay. Very fast. Haha. second childhood. Yeah. Elaine bought us two tubs of cie cream for baby sitting them. AHA. Yeah. All in all the day was great!! :D Monday. Chinese Os. DIEEE!!!! I didnt know how to read the passage man :( After that, Sabrina messaged me and asked if I wanted to go out. She wanted to treat me lunch!! YEAH YEAH!! HAHAH. Went down town with Chermin. Gail was already there, but SUPLISE!!! HAHAA Sabrina was late. HAHA. We took very long to decide what we wanted to eat. We walked to Cine's Marche then we realised it was closed. Then we went to check movie timings for Da Vinci code. Sabrina's treat. HAHA. But the idiot trainee didnt wanna let me watch. NEH NEH. So we decided it was sign and we went to eat Sakae buffet. Ate and ate. When we called for the bill, we realised it was 3 yet when we came in, So we were actually eating Ala Carte!! DIEE!!! HAHAHAHA. We were soooo full. We went shopping. Yeah. saw this really nice blazer. But didnt have my size, so Gail bought it. NEH NEH. AHA. Wanted to get Daniel a haircut voucher for his birthday. HAHA. Remember our genius plan!? HAHAHA. Actually Phua wanted to meet us, But by the time he replied.. haha. The pig was sleeping at 2 pm. Yeah. Bought stuff, went back. I wanna watch Grey's!!!! :( Tuesday. Went down for training. It was okay. Nice plays and all. Express VS Normal We won!!! It was me, Amamnda, Lin and Qian Ru. [P.S I didnt know Qian Ru was in Express!! HAHA] remember we were all being very childish and nonsensical. Every time we put in the ball, we kept saying, excuse me, "LOSER'S ball." HAHA. It was good. HAHA. Miss Goh gave us Chee kuey. She specifically told me not to let Amanda eat cos when she saw it, She said: " Chee kuey makes you FAT!" HAHA! We were like scavengers who didnt eat for ten years, sitting on the canteen floor fighting over chee kuey. HAHA. It was part of bonding. Went down to Raja Inn cos they wanted to eat steamboat. I didnt feel like it, so yeah, me and Lin went down to Deli and bought stuff to eat. Debbie came to meet us. The clever girl dragged me and Lin everywhere. We were supposed to go cut hair. Then she went to Lucky plaza. Couldnt find the shop, Then I was like, arent we supposed to go to Far east? This is Lucky Plaza. The daft idiot didnt get it. Only until she saw the sign Lucky Plaza then she realised. Idiot. HAHAHA. The haircut was okay. Debbie looked like some Anime character. HAHAH. Went to Queensway cos Debbie's shirt was too small and she wanted to change. Neh neh. Debbie owes me 11 bucks. Sent her back home, cos from there we had direct bus to Great world, And we had like 2 hours before the movie. Took 970 down. We did alot of jay walking. Sat in Macs. Saw Judy come in with Germaine. Called her, asked her who she was with and she said: "Friends." I was like "Germaine?" And she said "No lah." HAHAHA. Went to confront her. ROFLMAO!!!~ Steph came down. Yeah. Went to Arcade to fetch them. HAHA. We saw Qian ru playing th drums thing! FAIL!! HAHAHA. We took over. Passed a few, then we failed. Me and Amanda figured it was beacuse of Lin who got the bass drums. She missed like practically every beat! HAHAH! X men 3. We were very annoying. Me Amanda and Lin sat together, and we kept quoting the line and what would happen next! HAHAHAH!! Qian Ru is damn retarded. She doesnt know how to watch movies. Judy fell asleep okay!! Like seriously!! HAHA. Qian Ru asked why there were so many mutants, And me and Amanda were like dont you kknow? We're mutants too! We can predict what will happen next!! HAHAH! Then we kept telling her. HAHAH! Multiple Man!!! Eric Dane!! Wolverine!!! Hugh Jackman!!! HAHAHA. IceMan!!! Shawn Ashmore!!! Me, Lin and Amada kept on going on and on about their nice eyes!! HAHAHA! I love Eric Dane!! HAHAHAHA. Underwear part!! HAHAHAH!!!! We stayed till after the credits and was laughing at all the suckers who would miss the "ending" cos they left early. It was like we stayed for five minutes and the ending was like what 10 seconds? Irritating. HAHAHAH. Bought sushi. Went home. I dont know why I was so bummed. Supposed to stay over at Elaine's today? But I have Chinese Orals tommorrow. Die!! Dont feel like waking up so early for like 1 hour or so. Didnt go for lessons today. Wasnt sure if there was Biology. Messaged Chermin and she didnt reply. Neh neh. Yeah. Meeting basketballers later. Then going down town to take pictures at the skate park for Gail's project. OOOOOH! Hotties!! :DD HAHAHA. Hmm. Let me see. I read So speaks the heart by Johanna Lindsey. It's really sweet and nice. I would give it 4/5. Yeah. The ending is a tear inducer. The Girl Behind the Screen, 9:48 PM
Some of the sweetest moments of Grey's Anatomy
Derek: It's not the chase. Meredith: What? Derek: You and me. It is not the thrill of the chase. It's not a game. It's… it's your tiny ineffectual fists. And your hair. Meredith: My hair? Derek: It smells good. And you're very, very ballsy. It keeps me in line. Meredith: I'm still not going out with you. Derek: You say that now. Mr Murphy: Believe me son, living with a woman who cant love you back, way lonelier than being alone. Addison: Are you done Derek? Hurting me back I mean. Cos if you're not, I need to special order a thicker skin. Meredith: Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." Meredith (voiceover): So here's the truth about truth. It hurts. So we lie. ARGHH!! I think I'm obssesed with that show. Like seriously!! hahaha. Derek: Bailey's back? (Hurries to the door but stops when he looks in the window) And her cervix is being examined by my wife, which is a visual that I will never get out of my head. HAHAH!!! ROFLMAO!!! I just find that SOOOOO FUNNY!!! HAHAHAH! Derek: You alright? Meredith: I have a feeling. Derek: I get those. Meredith: Yeah? Derek: Yeah. Meredith: And? Derek: If you wait long enough it passes. Meredith: You promise? Derek: I promise. (Meredith walks away, and Addison walks in) Addison: Hey.. what'ya doing? Derek: Waiting for it to pass. AWWW!! Izzie: (to George and Alex) Would you two just shut up! Nobody cares if the blue is bluer or if you have super smelling powers. Meredith could die. Any minute she could just die. Actually stop living. Dead. Corpse. (starts giggling) I'm sorry. Sorry. God, I have really inappropriate reactions to this kind of stress. I'm sorry. HAHAHA!! Izzie is soo funny and bimbotic. Mark: That guy's pretty much a goner, huh? Meredith: Sensitivity. I like that in a stranger. Are you new here? Mark: Visiting. Confounded by all the rain and it's only my first day in town. Meredith: You get used to it. Mark: It makes me wanna stay in bed all day. Meredith: We just met and already you're talking about bed. Not very subtle. (Derek sees him and so does Addison) Mark: Subtle never been my strong suit. So, do you ever go out with co-workers? Meredith: I um...make it a rule not to. Mark: Then I am so glad that I don't work here. vMeredith: Are you hitting on me? In a hospital? Mark: Would that be wrong? Meredith: Meredith. (They shake hands, and Derek hits him) Meredith: What the hell was that?! Derek: That was Mark. :DDD!! LOVE IT!!! I love Mark! But I love Derek and Meredith!! AHH!!! CONFUSION!!! Mark: How come you can forgive her but not me? Derek: I didnt forgive her, and with you I have no obligation to try. Webber: Punching out people on my surgical floor. My head of neuro-surgery punching out people on my surgical floor. Addison: Put the ice back on your hand. Derek: My hand is fine! Webber: Put the damn ice on your 2 million dollar a year hand! Now would someone tell my what the hell happened? Addison: That was Mark. Webber: Who's Mark? Addison: He and Derek used to work together back in New York. And ... umm... They... We were all close friends. Until Derek found us in bed together. Webber (To Derek): You put your weight behind it? Derek: Yes sir. Webber: Well, alright then. So exciting!!! Webber is funny shit!! Mark: Derek and I always did have the same taste in women. Meredith: Excuse me? Mark: You're Derek's lusty intern, right? Heard about you all the way back in New York you're famous. Meredith: Hmm, well I heard about you all the way here in Seattle so I guess we have a lot in common. Mark: We're the dirty mistresses. Meredith: I suppose we are. Mark: My 400 dollar an hour shrink says that because behind this rugged and confident extierior, I'm self destruction and self loathing to an almost pathological degree. Meredith: Hey, we do have a lot in common. Mark: You know it's funny, Derek---Derek walks in on me naked with his wife actually in the throes. And he just turns around and walks away, but he sees me so much as talking to you and I'm on the ground bleeding. Interesting, don't you think? SERIOUSLY?!! Mark is so poor thing!! He loves Addie so much!! :( Burke: I am Preston Burke, a widely reknowned cardiao-thoraxic surgeon. I am a professional and more than that, I am a good and kind person. I am a person that cleans up behind myself. I am a person that cooks well. And you, you are an unbelievable slob. A slovenly, angry intern. I am Preston Burke. And you, you are the most competitive, most guarded, most challenging person I have ever met. And I love you. So sweet!!! And did I mention that I think that they are such a cuute couple? hahaha. George (To Meredith): I know I'm not a world reknowned surgeon and I know I'm not alot of things you've gone for in the past. But I would never leave you, I would never hurt you, and I will never stop loving you. (Meredith pulls his shirt over his head and doesn't say anything) George is so into Meredith, it's sad. Cos he's so sweet and yeah, but she'll never love him back. Joe: Dude, is she knitting? Derek: You know, as a friend, I gotta tell ya. You look a little weird. Meredith: I am making a sweater. Joe: You're knitting, in a bar. You cant knit in a bar you're scaring the customers. Derek: Come on, have a drink. Meredith: I can’t have a drink, I’m celibate. Joe: You mean sober? She means sober. Meredith: No, celibate. I’m practicing celibacy and drinking does not go well with celibacy, because it makes everything and everyone seem kinda porny, and then my head gets cloudy and the next thing you know, I’m naked. And my point is that I’m celibate and knitting is good for surgical dexterity so I’m making a sweater. Derek: You celibate? I just don’t buy it. Meredith: No more men. (Addison walks up) Addison: No more men? Really? You? (Derek gives her a look) I’m--I’m asking we’re friends. Meredith: Every guy I meet turns out to be married. Derek (Makes face): Ooh! Ouch. Meredith: Sorry. Or Mark. Addison: Okay, I’m gonna go over there now. (walks away) Meredith: Sorry. Or remember the horrible thing I did? Remember George? Derek: You’re making a sweater. Meredith: I am making a sweater. ROFLMAO!!! I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!! :DDDD Finn: So you and Derek uh...are you together? Meredith: Uh...D-Derek and I are um, just friends. He's married and I am knitting a sweater. And uh...well, I guess I'm rambling which I tend to do a lot lately and I just wish that someone would just tell me to shut up. But my point is uh...wer--were uh, he's married and I'm knitting...a sweater. Finn: So, you're single? Meredith: Single? Finn: I asked because I was wondering if you would like to go out with me? Meredith: Out, with you? Finn: On a date. Tonight. Meredith: Date? Tonight? Finn: And you're repeating everything I say so you can buy yourself sometime and figure out a way to let me down easy. It's okay, you know, I get-- Meredith: No. I-I-I um... you know you're very...It's just that if I were, you would (cringes)...Not dating. HAHAH!! Finn is so cute and hot and later he's super sweet!!! Meredith: Hi. Derek (puts the paper away): Hi. You leaving? Meredith: 80 hour limit. You? Derek: Surgery was postponed. (It looks like he’s checking her out. He can’t stop smiling or looking at her. Meredith looks over at him) Meredith: I have a dog. Derek (smiles): You have a dog. Meredith: My point is I have a dog. Derek (full on grinning now): You have a dog. Oh you know what? I love dogs. Meredith: I’ve moved on so don’t give me that look. (He moves from his position against the wall and stands up close to her) Derek: What look? Meredith: That look. Our look. I’m over you. Derek: I’m over you too. Meredith: You are? Derek (shakes his head smiling): No. Meredith (matter of factly): Oh, well I am. Over you. Derek: I’m over you too. Meredith: You just said … (He raises his eyebrows at her) Shut up. (The doors open and they are both smiling at each other until they see who is standing in front of the door. Addison. Who is by the way not looking very happy) (As Meredith hugs Finn and keeps dancing with her head on his shoulder. Sees Derek staring at her over Addison’s shoulder) Finn: You alright? Meredith: Yeah, I'm just hot, and ah, claustrophobic. Derek (To Addison): You know what? There's a patient I forgot to check on. Meredith: You know, I'm just gonna run and splash some cold water on my face. Derek: I'll be right back, okay? Meredith: I'll be right back, okay? (Meredith running down a hall in the hospital) Derek: Meredith. Meredith: Leave me alone. Derek: Meredith. (Meredith and Derek in a hospital room) Meredith: Just leave me alone. Derek: I just want to make sure you're alright. Meredith: No! I'm not alright? Okay? Are you satisfied? I'm not alright. Because you have a wife, and you call me a whore, and our dog died, and now you're looking at me again. Stop looking at me. Derek: I am not looking at you. I am not looking at you. Meredith: You are looking at me. And you watch me. And Finn has plans. And I like Finn. He's perfect for me, and I'm really trying here to be happy, and I feel like I can't breathe. I can't breathe with you looking at me like that so just stop! Derek: You think I want to look at you? That I wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I'm married. I have responsibilities. She, she doesn't drive me crazy. She doesn't make it impossible for me to feel normal. She doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my veterinarian touching her with his hands. Man, I would give anything to not be looking at you. (Long pause. Meredith turns around and looks at Derek. Derek grabs Meredith's head and kisses her. And then they have sex) Derek: What does this mean? Meredith: Uh, I had panties on, black. Do you see them? Derek: What does this mean? Meredith: And fix your tie. Derek: Meredith, what does this mean? Callie (opening the door): Oh, the nurse told me to come find you. You have to come now, its Izzie. Wait, wait. (stops Meredith and ties the back of her dress and gives Derek a mean look) Denny: What? You like your men sick and feeble? You don't dig healthy guys? Izzie: I dig you. Denny: Then why are you all swirly and twitchy? Izzie: No I'm not. Denny: It's 'cause I asked you to marry me. Izzie: So you remember that? Denny: Its not the kind of thing I'd forget. Izzie: Yeah. Denny, um, I'm giving you an out. Denny: Excuse me? Izzie: Well, I'm giving you an out. You thought you were dying and I was saving your life and well, you know, it was so (gasp). We can't get married. I mean that would be insane. We should date, and have sex. Plenty of sex. You know when your heart gets better and you're out of the hospital, all the sex you can handle. But marriage is, um, marriage. Denny: Ok, it's my turn now. Izzie: But I need to... Denny: No no no, we’re taking turns. I've decided. It’s polite and it keeps me from yelling. When it’s your turn again, you can talk. For 5 years, I've had to live by the choices of my doctors. The guys that cut me open decided my life; there wasn’t one choice that was mine. And now, I have this heart that beats and works. I get to be like everybody else. I get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever the damn hell I choose. Now here’s the good part, so you listen close. What I choose, is you. You’re who I wanna wake up with, and go to bed with, and do everything in between with. I get a choice now. I get to choose. I choose you Izzie Stevens. Ok, it’s your turn again. AWW MAN!! Denny is so sweet!!! HOW COULD HE DIE??!?!?!?! Meredith: I never should have told you about George. Derek: No, its fine, I'm glad I know about him, and the vet. You really get around. Meredith: What did you just say to me? Derek: It's unforgivable. Meredith: I don't remember ever asking you to forgive me. Derek: So was the knitting a phase? Who's next? Alex? 'Cause I hear he likes to sleep around. You two have that in common. Meredith (she grabs him as he turns to walk off): You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys and all the bars and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared, because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore. Derek: This thing with us is finished. It's over. Meredith: Finally. Derek: Yeah, it's done. Meredith: It is done. Aww man. It sucks, the way they each other so damn much. Honestly, at this point of time, you hate Derek. Cos what Meredith says is true. Derek has no right, and by staying with Addison, he's hurting both her and Meredith. It's sad. Cos he's so freaking jealous, thinking Meredith slept with Finn, but truth is, she didnt. She just loves Derek too much to do that again. I guess karma really is a bitch. And, this show just rocks my socks!!! DVDs please!!! :DD HAHA. The Girl Behind the Screen, 2:39 AM
If you're not near me, I feel as if a part of me is gone
Jean Grey/Phoenix: You would die for them? Wolverine/Logan: No, not for them.. for you.. for you. I love you. (ejects claws and kills her, letting out a sorrowful cry of outrage) AHHH!!! So sad!! Storm: Why are you doing this??!! Wolverine: Because I love her!! Yes people, I watched X men 3 with Jac and Cheryl. And I'm watching it again tommorrow with Elaine. And on Tuesday with Lin and Debbie. AHA. It's not GREAT GREAT, but it's really nice. Although the ending's pretty dissappointing, and Jean is so sad, and Scott. But I think the one my heart really goes out to is Wolverine. Yeah. He loved Jean so much, but he has to kill her. Ahh..! I feel so sad for him. Haha. Maybe because he's Hugh Jackman. Yeah, I'm partial to him. But I think in this mvie he's waaaayy too hairy.. So hairy, it's SCARY. HAHA. But OOH OOH!!! Guess who's in the movie?! MARK!!! MARK!! Eric Dane!!! As in Mark aka Mc Steamy from Grey's Anatomy!! Yes!! The hottie!! AND the best thing is that there's lots of him!! HAHA. Yeah! He's multiple man!! :D!! (After all of him merging into one after tricking the army that the army of mutants is gathered and finding himself surrounded with guns all pointing at him) Multiple Man: Whoa whoa officer!! Okay, I give up! AHA. He's damn hot!!! It's damn sad for Mark in Greys!! 
Oh wells. Life stinks. Karma's a bitch! AHA. There are some movies I'm so gonna watch!! Just my luck! The guy is like major eye candy aha!! AND yes!! Of course She's the man!! Oh yeah midnight movies here I come!! Oh ckeck out this webby: http://www.x-menthelaststand.com Sorry, but I'm multi tasking and reading the writer's blog for Grey's and.. DENNY DIES!!! LIKE ARGHHHH!!!!! LIKE DENNY CANT DIE!!! HE'S TOO DAMN SWEET AND NICE AND HE'S MR PERFECT TO IZZIE, AND IZZIE LOVES HIM SO MUCH AND HE LOVES IZZIE SO MUCH.. THEIR DIRTY SCRABBLE, AND HIS HUMOUR AND.. AND.. DENNY CANT DIE!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! CRIES!!! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS?!?!?!?! okay. breathe. Oh yes!! Derek grabs Meredith and kisses her!! FINALLY!! :DDD!!! Oh man!! DENNY!!! Jeffrey Dean Morgan. Yeah. He's not hot hot, but he's so charming and sweet!! NO!!! DONT DIE!!!! Izzie will so kill herself. Oh man!! There are so many people I love on the show. Derek and Mer, Burke is so adorable with Christina, and so damn sweet! Bailey is the funiest shit! Denny is like WHOA!! Mr Perfect. Finn aka Chris O Donell is so hot and sweet!! And Mark is damn hot!! And such a tragic guy. It's a bummer Eric Dane's married. Haha. Hmm. Yeah so on Friday I ate lunch with Jacq and Cheryl, and yeah. X men 3. After that I went down to church. Yeah. Cell group was pretty great. Youth cell. Let's see how long this one lasts. Sabrina liked the earings I chose. :D hahaha. Everyone was saying it was very nice. I was like of course. HAHA. I had such a bad migrain. Church today was cool. Hahaha. I went to spoil it for Bird bird and told her all the important things of X3. I described the scene he killed Jean grey. SAD! But you realise there's a fault. Cos when she first start using her power, his clothes keeps ripping off. nearer he goes, more clothes comes off. HAHAHA. Until it reaches his pants. Then nothing more rips off. HAHA. The twins were adorable. Worship was powerful and awesome. His presence was so tangible. The message was overwhelming, makes you really sit up. HAHA. Joshua kept on saying " Uncle no cry! " ELAINE!!! Shua-shua Man!! And Lebby Man!! HAHAH! Sensitive dude. The tiramisu was great, and the island creamery ice cream. Yeah!! HAHAA I'm gonna pack my hols with activities. Did I mention I failed 3 subjects in the end? AND!! I actually got an A1 for Biology!!! DANG!! I was looking at my paper, then I saw my MCQ, 35. Then I turned and looked, Section A:34. I was like eh!!? Dammit. I didnt check properly, and then it was too late. So annoying!!!! My L1 R4's pretty great. 18. Yeah. Minus 9 more points at least for Os. MUG MUG!!! Friday we're gonna meet Esther for dinner!!! :DD http://www.imdb.com Hmm. I read The Lady in question by Victoria Alexandra Let's say 3.5/5? Yeah. It's really sweet, but a bit slow moving. Okay. Adios! Off to Grey's for me!! :DD The Girl Behind the Screen, 10:54 PM
Being held by him was never the problem. It was the letting go that hurt.
Hey. Okay. So what could I say? McYeah. My results SUCKED. BIG TIME. I didnt get my A1 for my biology. I got 74. Like 1 mark away from my A. ONE!!!?! So yeah. As you can guess, I was pretty upset. I failed 4 subjects. And I am so dead. Mom's so gonna kill me. All (with the execption of Accounts [ungraded]) were forty somethings. Which is really just great. Like GREAT. Like really frustrating. I got 41 for Chinese, 48 for Humans, 42 for Math. Math across board was done real bad. Chinese too. They were like really strict this time. Hmm. Yeah. Self training sucked. On Monday it was school, and like overload of Chinese lessons. Like OMG! Chinese Os are next Monday!! DIE!!!! Uh huh. Dead. I think I gotta pass Chinese at least to get into Mass Comm. You know what I think would be a pretty cool career? Brain surgeon. Heart surgeon. Like fixing the very organ that runs the whole body. Controls emotions. McYeah! HAHA. I think maybe that's what happens when you watch too much of Greys. Then again, maybe not. Cos it sure aint happening to my sisters. But yeah. It's cool. After school it was Over the hedge with Lin, Lyanne, Elmo and Li wei. It was funny man. HAHA. And cute. Worth the 7 bucks. "I'm gonna gas you so bad, you're grandchildren's gonna stink!!" HAHAHA. And when he drank the caffeine. Dude. THAT was funny. I ate a cheese hot dog which exploded in my face like seriously. I bit into it and BOOM! The cheese splatters in my face. The woman couldnt stop laughing. AHAH. I didnt go to school the next day. Yeah. Stayed home, slept till like 11. Read my book, watched King Arthur, and I cant remember what I did. Yeah. Wednesday.Hmm. School was boring. The talk was pretty cool. Yeah. The Micahel Jordan thing. AHA. Jo Phang and Shankar wanted me to give a talk to the Sec 2s bout Literature. No thanks. Met Bel in town. Ate Pasta. Corissa. HAHA. SALT! Tong was late as usual. We talked bout stuff, and they walked me to PS to meet Gail. This Amercan guy burped right into my ear. ROFLMAO!! Haha. Bought a pair of earing for Aunty Joyce's birthday. Walked around, checked out Fox and lots of stuff. Went Carrefour and bought sushi. Something really embarrassing happened which I'm not gonna say. AHA The Daniel look alike. AHA. Watched episode 25 of Grey's. BIG MISTAKE!!!!! We didnt have 26 and 25 was left hanging in the air!! Izzy cuts of Denny's support to help his condition get worse so he can get the heart, She thought that Burke was reaching, BUT! When Burke arrives, he gets shot outside the hospital!! ARGHH!!!! Derek's really upset bout Meredith and Finn. Honestly, he's quite a jerk. He chose Addison over her. He has no right to judge her if she dates someone else!! "You have no right to say how I fix something of mine that you broke" ARGHH! How sad is that. And it's annoying cos he's hurting both Addison and Meredith in the process. "Derek's in love with Meredith. And the only people who dont know that, is themselves. How am i supposed to compete with that?" At that point, you really really feel so sad for Addison. And also Denny is so sweet to Izzie!! The Finn and Meredith thing is sad. Cos Finn is so into her, and Meredith still loves Derek!! (After he tells her Doc's gonna die) Finn: I'm sorry, I know how much you love him. Meredith: Yeah. I do. AND it's like ARGHH! Cos Finn's talking bout Doc and she's talking bout Derek. It's sad. It really is. And another person is Mark. He loves Addison! And he's so sad!! Mark: How come you forgave her, and you cant forgive me? Derek: I didnt forgive her, and with you I'm not obliged to try. In Joe's it's like he waits for Addison to show up, And he talks to Meredith. Meredith: You're still in love with her. Mark: What? You're still in love with him. AND! Meredith: She's not gonna show you know. ( Remember how she waited for Derek?) He's not the kind of guy you'll leave if you can help it. ARGHH!! It's so sad! I like Mark!! He's hot and funny, he's McSteamy!! And yeah, he loves her so much. They should be together! Then Derek and Meredith could get together. BUT then what bout Finn??!! ARGHH!! There are too many nice, hot, sweet guys!! TOO many love triangles!! But I love Grey's Anatomy anyhow!! :DD! Hmm. Let me see what books I read. Silver Lion by Lynn Kerstan. It's okay. Let's say 3/5 Yeah. Today's quote was from there. Bridget by Linda Lael Miller. It's nice. But I figured it really is kinda short. Yeah. 3.5/5 There's lots of stuff that could have been added in. But it's another childhood love thing. But she ended up marrying his best friend. "He'd have cut his heart out of his chest and handed it to her if she'd ask it of him" Yeah. It's sweet. Valentine Legacy by Catherine Coulter This was a bit too draggy. 3/5 And it's not very stimulating. Not impactful. Yeah. I read Riley in the Morning by Sandra Brown. I'll say it is like the best book ever!! 5/5!! Hey! Come on. I've read the book 5 times, and it still moved me. It's so sweet, heart wrenching. It's just awesome!!! "Why would I want another woman Brin, when I had you? Why would I even look for another woman when I had loved the best?" "But life just wasnt fun anymore. You'd taken all the color with you. Everything was gray. From time to time I'd forget what happened and I'd turn to you to share a comment bout a book, tv, a flavour of ice cream. Only you werent there Brin, and I'd lose all pleasure in it." Home is where the heart is. "Home? I dont have a home. I have a hous that used to be a home, when I shared it with you. When I shared it with my wife!" Oh man. This book is just awesome. Can I keep it? HAHA. I think Riley's so cute. HAHAHA. "I sent her two dozen roses later by means of apology." (He called a woman FAT!!) And then he crossed his arms and slouched in the seat and looked like a little boy who was settling down for a long pout. HAHA. "Whash a matter?" "You're drunk!!" "Jush a teeny weeny bit whoozy from a losh of blood." AHA. So cute. Hahaha. Glorious angel by Johanna Lindsey. This book is good. 3.7/5? Yeah. It's sweet, and funny. But I think more can be improved by showing more of Bradford's feelings. Yeah. Like how he felt and his jealousy. It's a really sweet book. There's youth cell tommorrow. X men 3 is out!!! Gonna watch!! :DD The Girl Behind the Screen, 7:32 PM
How would he ever open his eyes in the morning if he knew it wouldnt be to see her lying next to him?
Howdy. So on Friday I went over to the Phua's house and baked for Mother's Day. Hahahaa. Yeah. It was pretty fun. The boys came over too, But Caleb was in one of HIS moods again. So yeah. But they were so adorable with the hamster!! HAHAHA. When I went back with them to get milk and the baking paper, Joshua wanted me to bathe him. So I helped him, but left and he ran out like to the gate to where I was like stark naked!! HAHAHHA. I was like shocked!! HAHAHA. Well, after baking and all, SUPRISE!! We walked over to Elaine's and yeah, stayed over. The boys were super :D But sadly, they were sick. You feel so sad for them. Yeah. Joshua had a fever of 39.6, Caleb's was 38.8, and Noah's was 37.8. Yeah. Even Elaine wa sick. Joshua woke me up in the middle of the night so cute. And they wanted to sleep next to me, But Ken canned them. Caleb went back to his bed, But Joshie stayed and whined. HAHAHA. Then when Elaine came he was like "Sleep with Jie jie Anna!!" Elaine was like "Okay." Then he pouted and said "But papa beat Shua Shua!!" HAHAHA! LOL!! Yeah. Church next day. Met Phua at Queenstown and walked to church. Church was alright. Oh guys, Daniel's back. With long hair this time, looking like Shaggy dog/The guy from Scooby Doo. HAHA. YAY!! Going to watch Poseidon with Robin on Sat!! :DD Hmm. The exams were alright. Biology!! I'm so pissed cos I made such STUPID mistakes!! RARRRR!! I'll kill myself if I dont get my A1. HAHAHA. Question number 24!! LOL! After that, went to town with Gwen, Andrea and Val. Took neos. We met Zhi Yi and Mel. Yeah. SHAKE YOUR COCCONUTS!! :DD!! Hahahaha. The Chem and Phy MCQ was pretty tough man. Yeah. Gonna die with Geraldine!! HAHAHA. Should have went biking with them today. Rarr. Was actually supposed to go town today. But I was too lazy. Cos Kim wasnt going and neither was Chong. Oh. Yesterday I went steamboat with Big gwen. It was good, and I was like soooo full. Hmm. Got back Englsih and Chinese. I got my A1 for English!! I'm so happy! 79!! :D Top in the level okay :D HHAHA. People were like congratulating me. Juli, Bathu, Geraldine, Nicole. hahaha. Yeah. And Mabel and Jia Rui hates me for getting top. Haha. They were complaining to Steph. I thought I may have went out of point for my essay. But apparently I didnt!! I got 26/30!! YAY YAY!! I think Jo Phang was the one who marked it. It was her handwriting. I'm so proud of myself! :D One subject down!! Next BIO!!! Mass Comm here I come!! The funnny thing is that Corissa was also top for 5NA. Jo Phang was like " And the top for NA, 67, Corissa Wong! " And everyone was STUNNED. Then you could here Ying min say super loudly "OH MY GOD!" HAHAHA. ROFLMAO! Unbelievable. BUT. I failed my Chinese. They were really strict with marking this time. DAMN! I got like 35/100. Shucks. Gotta at least pass to get into Mass Comm. Fishing with Kwan and Alicia!! :D Cant wait! AHA. And tanning too! I'm getting really white. The books I read: Someone to love. I cant remember the author's name. It was sweet, but not like very impactful. 3.5/5 But it was pretty funny. It's bout Abby, whose husband died climbing out of another woman's window. HAHA. And Kipp. Who apparently thinks he loves loves his childhood friend Merry. BUT!! She doesnt love him back, and marries his other childhood friend Jack. He wants to get married before they return so they wont know he's nursing a broken heart. Yeah.Abby tries to matchmake him with her neice. But of course, they get married in a marraige of convenience. "How would he ever open his eyes in the morning if he knew it wouldnt be to see her lying next to him?" The message by Stella Cameron. This was like okay. 3/5 Nice. But not impactful either. Not like Whitney my love, Sned no flowers, Kingdom of Dreams, Douuble standards, And I think I'm getting carried away. HAHAHA. Defy not the heart by Johanna Lindsey This I like. Funny, witty, and sweet.4/5. Missing Molly by Janice Kay Johnson AH. 4.5/5!! This is a heart wrenching story, Bout wrong descisions, Even ones made 12 years ago. You see, Nora and Molly were best friends as kids, grew up together. And yeah. Each other's families were like their own and so on so forth. Nora has this huge crush on Molly's older brother, Rob. And apparently, Rob has this crush on her too. They get together, yadder yadder. BUT! Molly and Nora get drunk after their grad party and Nora drives, And they get into a car accident and Molly dies. Nora was bright, brilliant, full scholarship to Stanford. But cos of this, her future is ruined. Yeah. And Rob who already told her he loves her, Goes up to her and says, " You know how much I love my sister. You killed her." She's devastated of course. And Molly's mom hates her. Now after running away from her past, Nora's back after 12 years, AND IT"S REALLY SWEET!! "Yes! He had a date with his teenage sweetheart!!" "I would have waited for you.." "I need you to love me.." "Just know that.. I've been incomplete without you.." AWW!!! Cordinia's Crown Jewel by Nora Roberts This was okay. Nice. let's say 3.5/5. I think if everything fails, I can be a book critic. HAHA. Grey's Anatomy. This is for Lin. So many things I love bout it. Everything is so real. You find you can relate to it. Cos you dont have to be superman, or this evil villian. You just have to be human to understand what they're going through. You see, The characters are so painfully imperfect, BUT beautifully so.. And despite all their imperfections, they have people who love them. Meredtih the "dirty mistress" who's always getting drunk and ends up in bed with all the wrong people, Like the married guy Derek. her freind who has a huge crush on her, George, and the guy whose pennis she breaks. But again, despite all those imperfections, She is loved. By Derek, Finn. That's the beauty of it all. For now, This is just one of the reasons I love Grey's so much!! :DD Whatever happened to the scribbled notes in which we teased each other. The times we would just get down and laugh out loud, Shove each other at APNNs and beg for mercy and peace later? Whatever happened to reminiscing th past together, OBS and all, The planned gatherings and "HELP HELP!! The pillar is falling!!" Am I the only one who remembers it all? Or was it all just a fiction of my imagination? The pure stupid stunts we pulled just for laughs "Can I have 7 happy meals please?" What happened to the promises of being and staying friends? They seem to have faded, Becoming not more than fond memories. I cant seem to remember, It all seems so long ago.. The Girl Behind the Screen, 4:49 PM
Owner of a Lonely heart
Howdy. I cant really remember this week cos it has been a blur for me. Full of last minute studying, of cramming. And the real amazing thing is that He really has been guiding me. Even though I really didnt deserve it, His guidance, I got it. Everytime without fail when I sat down and whipped out my books, I would turn to a certain chapter, a certain topic. And each time when I sit down for the paper, it would be there staring at me. It's pretty amazing. So it has been harbour front, reading and all. Cant really remember. Hahaha. That day I was going on and on bout Grey's and trout. And apparently my sister had enough. HAHAH. So she turned to me and said " Anna, enough is enough. " And at first we just stopped. Then we couldnt stop laughing. ROFLMAO!!! HAHA. In case you dont know, "Enough is enough" is a title of one of the episodes in season 2 of Grey's. Hah. Yeah that was pretty amusing. I was pretty high that day. It was Wednesday if I'm not wrong. Hmm. I watched Mission Impossible 3 on that day too. It was good. Funny shit. Better than MI2. The funny thing was the quotes. Haha. "Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall.. " ROFLMAO!!! I couldnt stop laughing!! Me and Steph were like KEN!!! Hahaha. That's the thing bout watching movies with people you've know like all your lives. You get a kick outta it cos you guys get inside jokes. Like from Mr and Mrs Smith. " Come to daddy! Who's the daddy now?! " THAT got me. Hahaha. And all of us. I loved the car!! It was SWEET!! But as usual, they had to blow it up. The funny thing was that when Ethan was supposed to have died, and Julia pounds on his chest for Pete's sake, (like the scene in Lost between Jack and the Rock God guy, and from Grey's the scene between Derek and Bailey's husband) HAHA. And I went "He's so gonna gasp." And sure enough, me and Tom cruise GASPED at the exact same moment. It was pretty funny. The guy from bend it like Beckham. Oh yeah man. HE'S HOT!! HAHA. ( Due to lack of gadgets, they rain baseballs on the roof to distract the bad guys) " OH YEAH! They're freaking out. HIT THEM AGAIN!!" HAHAHA. (Ethan escapes, using the walkie talkie posing as the top guy. After using the walkie talkie, he leaves it on, next to a stereo blasting: ) " We are family!! Father, brother sister and me! " The music blasts into the entire system. The top guy says: " Tell me this is not happening. " HAHAHA. That was funny!! (During the imprompto wedding ceremony) Father: Do you have the rings? (Ethan and Julia smile) Ethan: Yeah, we do. (Proceeds to take out two plastic rings, one with a cartoon frog, and the other with a panda) ROFLMAO!!! HAHAHA. (At the end) Julia: Maybe you could tell me what we're doing here in Shanghai. (Ethan appears to consider it) Ethan: I'm part of an organization called the IMF. Julia: What does that stand for? Ethan: Impossible Mission Force. Julia: Haha. You're funny. Oh and one of my favourites!! The black guy: So you and her, there wasnt anything between you two? (Glares at him) Ethan: She was like my little sister. The black guy: And uhmm.. you dont sleep with your little sister or something did you? HAHAH! Hilarious!! The books I read so far were: " Once a Princess" and "Love only once" by Johanna Lindsey. "Love only Once" was hilariously funny. "Once a princess" was nice. Really sweet and nice. One of her best books. Sad cos Stephan's so haunted by his scars and yeah. Cant imagine anyone loving him for who he truly is instead of his money and position. It's really nice. "Temptation" by Nora Roberts was pretty good too. HAHA. Mr Macho man!!" Couldnt stop laughing!! And last but certainly not the least, " Summer Light " by Luanne Rice. It's a really great book. And one of the best things, is that it's not the kind of book in which at the end, everything is miraculously great. In this book, he really does go blind in the end. Tragic, that a NHL star, never got to fufill his own dream of winning the Stanley Cup. But amazing cos his teammates do it for him. Tragic that he loses his sight, But great that he lives with it, and a stronger love grows. The story of his daughter is tragic. But it's so beautiful the way he heals, and can love again, be a father again. Touching. A tear inducer. "It's grass. Not witch hair. It's grass.. it's.. it's WITCH HAIR!!! ARGGHH!" HAHAHAH! Hilarious. "Only God saves more than Nils Jorgenson" "The puck stops here." Cool shit. Hahahha. Yeah. The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:54 PM
Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Cos it feels so damn good when I stop.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 2:25 PM
Any more steps, and I'm walking away
I love the episode of Much too much!! HILARIOUS!!! HAHAHA! And everything else too. Owner of a lonely heart was sad. Real sad. Lonely. ARGHH!! Apparently, Meredith hooks up with this Chris O Donnel guy. Can't wait!! Like finally Meredith can move on a bit. It's really sad seeing her like that. And apparently, Derek asks Addison if she wants to have hot sex. HAHA! And it's sad, cos you realise that Addison is really lonely. The way she looks at him and says " Thank you. " Like seriously, she thanks her husband for asking her if she wants to have sex. It's so sad because Addison thinks Derek does it, trying to make their marraige work, when actually it's cos he thinks that Meredith slept with Chris whose name is Fin by the the way. ( And no, Meredith hasnt slept with him. She's kinda trying out this new thing where she goes slow on the intimacy stuff. So yeah. )She's trying. Everyone's trying. And yeah. I mean i still want the Der/Mer thing to work out but yeah. It's sad to see how Addison is trying so hard to make things work. Ah. Sigh. Like seriously. Can life get any worse than that. Whoa. And not to mention I CANNOT wait for when Marc comes and flirts with Meredith and Derek punches him ( Episode 18 ) And when Derek tells Addison he loves Meredith. AND when he tells Meredith he's not over her. ARGHHH!!! Maybe it was in my imagination that we used to be friends. Maybe I was always alone, Was never a part of anyone. Owner of a lonely heart. So yeah. The past few days were the same. Lonely. Yesterday I went to harbour with Val, Debbie, Maria and Xin ni. Just didnt feel right. Yeah. Starbucks and all. Then church where we watched Grey's Anatomy. AWESOME. Like seriously. There was this seriously great quote,but i cant seem to place it. Played guitar with Gary. He worship led. It was pretty good. Why is it that when you surrender, I feel like the one who has been conquered? Okay. So back to today. Math was alright. It was pretty great I guess. Considering what I've been doing during lessons, or rather what I have not been doing, yeah. I managed to do the paper. A few questions caught me but yeah. I'll pass. I think. The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:01 PM |
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