| MY WORLD
STC basketball 2003-gone
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
cant wait for tommorrow.
baby sitting the twins.
wheee.
one of the things i've actually been looking forward to.
school today.
i admit all i did was read the book.
which was fantastic and funny by the way.
but the rest just basically slept and slept.
you know my boring class.
trainig.
the reason i actually dragged myself to school.
and it sucked.
seriously.
i dont feel like complaing but i have to get it off my chest.
what happened to a more united team,
a more carefree on the court,
and more happy one.
i'm sorry to say this,
but i'm tired of clearing up her messes,
doing her tasks,
trying to pull the team together when SHE'S the captain not me.
as a friend she's fine.
but as a captain,
no disrespect here but nah.
everyone was so moody,
and draggy,
and i tried lightening the mood,
cracking lame jokes,
and sherrading for my dear bel,
but even i couldnt help but sink into the suckiness of it all.
i too found my mind wandering off to somewhere else,
someone else.
to you..
it used to be once i get on the court i forget it all,
i intercept a pass,
put in a nice lay up,
and feel the adrenaline rush,
and voom.
for once in my life,
on that court i can feel truly happy.
truly satisfied without having to have you..
on that court i could play my heart out,
i could fell strength in every stride,
in every pass,
on that court i was strong,
i didnt need to cry myself to sleep.
and then somehow it all changed,
and it became THIS..
The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:57 PM
..here without you..
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
past few days have been alright.
got my results and they really suck.
i know i could have done much better.
especially english.
if i had bothered to do the summary even.
take my biology.
i liked it.
so i studied.
and i got an A.
everything else i dont like,
i dont study.
what's wrong with you anna.
what's wrong with me.
i wanna go somewhere but i dont take the first step.
let's start with friday.
phew to godwin not staying over.
and yeah.
sleepover was fun,
but not as fun as lasty week.
church.
the worship was W-E-I-R-D.
the drums somehow was not as stable,
not as confident.
she was going off key.
and it's hard to say.
the twins as usual were adorable.
with their pingu!!!
hahaha
so cute.
and i've got a job babysitting them.
thursdays and sundays.
i mean i dont even mind just looking after them for free!!
hahahaha.
shh.
but since i'm getting paid good money to do it,
why not?
on sunday we went to jo's house to brainstorm bout open house.
and hey.
it was one sided.
i'm proud to say it was all my ideas :D
geee. i wonder why.
hahaha.
we had long talks later.
at secret recipe.
and i had a brownie.
i need to diet.
we had family day after that.
and watched what's that show?
i cant remember.
oh. a knight's tale.
school on monday was a drag and a pure bother.
pratically sletp through the whole day.
briefed everyone on open house cos jo didnt know how to do it.
figures.
training was like alright.
but very slack.
and alot of cutting.
go figure again.
and before that,
the sec ones got into trouble.
AGAIN.
and ms mak has become a very sad and moody person.
and, i dont know anymore.
i'm too sick and tired.
things got worse since you left.
and i wish...
The Girl Behind the Screen, 11:59 AM
into the blue :D
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
heya.
yesterday i went bowling and then i came home for dinner,
and then it was lots of tv,
late night talks,
and so on and so forth and the point is they went to watch goal without me!!!
grrr.
and a midnight movie too at that.
i love midnight movies.
neh neh.
liar liar pants on fire gail.
hmmph.
never mind.
i'm getting free tickets again!!!!!
whee :D!!
okay.
so today i woke up really early and was deprived of sleep,
and my pretty pretty nice dream was ended abruptly.
grrr.
slept in the mini bus and then had duck noodle for breakfast.
i was soooo full alright.
and after a like really long time i reached school.
actually not really.
but they didnt let me get the keys and blah and blah.
so i had to find a school attendant.
and lin sees a old lady sitting on the bench and goes "HEY! school attendant!!! "
right lin. way to go.
hahaa.
poor woman.
i was pretty hyper.
okay i was hyper and so i greeted mrs chua and she was like
" do you know this is the first time you greeted me inthe whole year?"
i was like " erm.. no? "
and hahaa!! she said " i must go buy 4D today. "
haha. i dont know why but it cracked me up.
finally found ms mak got her keys yadder yadder yadder.
ran 10 rounds and did jumping :D
and we played captains ball.
we at first won the pe teachers plus ms mak and all.
then they started getting rough.
and we didnt dare to touch them :(
so we lost :/ how embarrassing.
played match.
did nice lay ups,
nice rebounds,
yadder yadder.
i dont want to design the tshirt already. hmmph.
rarr you all.
haha.
" we're one. so i'm the bird and you're the dropping "
ahaha. went to town and we ate at cafe galilee and friends.
or rather jo ate.
met elmo and chess and i went to buy tickets.
met kim and amanda :/
kept bumping into ravinder and maryanna and fangzi.
my legs hurt alot.
into the blue was fun.
and andrea's right.
the part when the shark bit off her leg is so nice.
hahaha.
yeah yeah.
i'm not sadistic.
it's just that the graphic were really real.
and yeah.
we we're the funnest crowd of people there okay.
haha.
went to queensway after that and got my name tag done.
orange and brown :D
i like.
and yeahh.
i guess thats all.
okay jeremy's here=noise
bummer. okay i'm going now.
see yeah.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:44 PM
freedom!!!
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
freedom!!!
exams are over!!!! :D
but i'm not very elated though.
oh. someone has to remind me to go find for ms foo's dictionary and pass it back to her.
aha.
shermin fell down.
it's freaking huge on both her knees.
hahaa.
stupid irwin said i'm very rough and all.
haha. like he hasnt even met me?!
hahhaha. and i wasnt the one who made her fall down.
suprinsingly shermin stood up for me.
hah. her dad was damn funny.
and he looks really young.
hahaha. chess stood me up!!
we were supposed to go watch into the blue.
with kwan and all.
but the neh neh had a last minute dental appointment.
rarr.
in the end i went home.
instead of going with elmo and all.
yeah.
i'm a loser.
who cares?
not i.
not ever since you left.
rarr. okay. i've got soo many movies i wanna watch.
goal!! and into the blue!! and transporter 2!!
whee!
cash shortage.
and i need new clothes.
seriously.
what's love without the loved?
bleddy hell. i really miss you.
withdrawal symptoms from you..
why cant i breathe whenever i think about you,
why cant i speak whenever i talk about you.
it's inevitable.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 12:07 PM
i still miss you
Sunday, October 16, 2005
this post is bout you.
afterall,
isnt that what my life has been all about?
you.
it's all about you.
and it sucks.
cos it's not meant to be bout you.
it's supposed to be bout Him.
bleddy hell.
it really is amazing how with a flick of a pen,
a few fingers and a keypad you cant still me cry,
how with three words you can make me smile.
it makes me wonder.
how despite the huge distance you affect me so much.
this poem's for you:
I wish i could built a time machine
To turn back time.
I'll pause at my favourite part,
Live that moment forever.
I would rewind the clock,
To when we first met.
When our hearts were still knit together,
Our hands still warm from our touch...
When there were no lies,
And our smiles were genuine.
I would listen to the warmth and depth of your laughter,
Immerse myself in the sound of you.
Yeah, I could if i would,
Pause when i still had you.
Let that moment be forever,
Forever you and I..
The Girl Behind the Screen, 1:51 PM
YOU
heya.
so far so good.
i'm not bothering bout my exams cos i already know i wont do well at all.
she really doesnt fufill her duty as a captain.
that's all i'm gonna say.
no more.
hah.
friday was fun.
we had home cell and gary and debbie came over.
both stayed over and we stayed up till 2 to play cards and talk,
and as usual, LAUGH alot.
and that gay retarded song on gary's ipod.
roflmaf!!~
reminds me of thailand!! AHA!
he's gonna stay with over with us from now on.
bluff was ubber funny,
and as usual i was like either the first or second to finish all the time :D
cant wait to go betting with shu shan. aha!
damn do i miss all the youth and church camps.
all the fun,
and getting nearer to Him,
the terrific worships,
late nights,
all the laughs,
pranks,
dares,
playing pool,
composing songs together,
the stories,
everything.
church was fun.
me and gail packed the same shirt,
neh neh.
so i wore a shirt over preppy style :D
caleb was especially cute today.
hahah. *suprised look
the new guy was like seriously weird.
he was totally frowning throughout the whole service.
godwin scared joshy again :(
i love the twins!!
they're getting smarter and more adorable by the day :D
caleb really looked like ken today aha.
bro's gonna go try out for SIA steward today.
helped him get socks and outfit and all.
okay the striped and stirped wasnt that bad. aha.
and he went for zara interview.
hope he gets the job. staff discount :DD
i cant figure out why after so long,
so much time,
i still miss you so much.
i dont know why i still think f you every single day,
dream of the impossible,
of being with you.
i cant understand why i know that if need be,
at any single moment if i ever need to,
i would lay my life down for you to let you live.
but it's so hard,
whenever i see your face,
hear your voice,
to forget everything that we had,
forget you.
bloody ass,
no matter how badly you treat me,
how hurtful your words are,
how far away,
how many times you break my heart,
i would still love you,
risk my life for you,
to see you happy,
i would still do anything..
The Girl Behind the Screen, 1:30 AM
pictures
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
 gail's drawing on top of the world  now.. that goes in here..
 see you walk away..
 heh heh joshie
 caleb the chess champion :D
plant looking thingy drawing of gail's
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:54 PM
when my ribs been bruised so bad from thinking bout YOU
howdy.
screwed up my chem and accounts paper yesterday aye?
bloody hell.
and ms sim in the end couldnt make it for tuition,
so i ended up screwing up my maths paper 2.
lit was alright.
it was a good thing jo phang went throught the passage that day.
she's such a good teacher aye?
mr tan gave me phyics tuition today.
not as useful and not as many tips as the last time. ahaha :(
i think i'm goona fail that too.
let me see.
what am i going to fail?
maths, combined science, combined humans, accounts.
that's four.
neh neh.
rarr.
ms sim made me promise her to do like really well for english, math and lit next year.
how did she do it??
i asked what if i didnt make the mark?
and she said i'll break her heart.
i was like huh?
so serious huh?
can treat you to marche?
neh neh.
oh. by the way, mr sng rocks :D
hahaha and maria thinks she has diabetes!!!
gosh. she's checking up on the symptoms!!!!!! so funny!!
hahahahaha. study anna study!!!
MUG MUG MUG!!
when my ribs been bruised so bad from thinking bout YOU
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:00 PM
here without you..
Monday, October 10, 2005
maybe if you dont know me,
and i dont know you,
and you dont have the guts to leave a name,
maybe you should keep your comments to yourself.
dont get involved in something you arent ready to face.
i went to school today,
i dont know why.
i woke up and dragged myself.
i didnt get much done.
correction.
anything done.
and i dont know why i'm sitting here when i should be mugging my ass off.
chem and accounts.
that's two failures.
i cancelled on tong again :( i'm so sorry.
and i went home.
i was moody and i was very upset.
and i think i have an idea why.
but i dont think i do.
i feel like drinking booze,
i feel like drowning my sorrows away.
i want to go back,
when it's all dark,
when it's raining,
with the breeze blowing,
lie back on the court and relive all my happy times,
and sad times.
then it will rain,
and admist the falling drops,
my tears will fall.
but this time the rain will wash away my tears.
and i will shout and let it all out.
and maybe,
just maybe,
everything will be okay.
there's another cure though.
you.
i shouldnt have cancelled on tong.
then at least i would have learnt accounts.
but then i did.
so i'm so screwed now,
cos i barely just started on chem,
and i still have accounts to go.
i cant seem to concentrate.
my world's coming crashing down..
i wish i could build a time machine,
go back into time.
then i would pause at the moment that our smiles were genuine,
our hearts were warm.
i would sit there and listen to the deepness and warmth of your laughter.
i would stop time when our words were still the truth,
when there were no lies,
no hate.
no walls.
no distractions.
no complications.
when there was still you..
i wish i could be,
every lil thing you wanted..
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:43 PM
oh gosh. hot rich guys.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
oh shut up. i like believing in fairy tales and indulging in fantasies.
but oh wells.
i'm quite annoyed cos my mom just read my inbox,
which has emails from matt and things that people dont even know.
and now this is weird.
josh is consulting me bout his BGR problems,
and i barely know him.
but i guess that's why it's easier to relate?
ah. i dont know.
bah.
i dont even know what i am doing here. i should be MUGGING!!!
loser clarissa has two papers on her birthday. aha!!!
oh man. josh is really damn poor thing. and he's freaking sweet.
now he's set me thinking. neh neh.
haha. but he has a sad life aye.
an orphan?
i cant imagine losing my family even though sometimes they really get on your nerves and you feel like jumping up and strangling them. aha.
from the start,
from the day i met you,
i told myself not to get involved,
he's totally emotionally unstable,
way out of your league.
but despite knowing all that,
i couldnt stop myself from meeting you,
from answering your calls,
and immersing myself in your presence..
from the start i knew you were out of my reach,
you made that clear and i knew it.
but still i didnt know how to let go,
and then for a moment i thought you were mine..
i was flying high,
and then it came,
and it hurt so bad.
why did i hope for something so large that failure was inevitable?
dont do it again anna. dont.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 12:13 PM
my hands are cold and forsaken, my heart forgotten and broken..
Saturday, October 08, 2005
heya.
nothing much really happened lately,
i just realise how much i'm an ass.
i take alot of people for granted,
thinking that they'll forever be there.
i get easily aggitated over small things and fall out with them.
people like debbie and jo,
and so many other people.
and now it's all coming back to haunt me.
hmm. this weird guy added me on friendster.
okay he's not weird,
but in a way he is.
okay what am i talking?
he's an aussie,
but he's so singaporean.
like come on, the guy watches stairway to heaven :S
but he has a nice porshe
and he's supposedly clarissa's friend.
so oh wells
and he has an indoor basketball court in his aussie home.
now that's cool.
and his aussie home is sooo nice.
he's only 21 and he went to yale and all,
and he's a manager of a company?
like how sweet is that.
ah. call me gullible.
but i like to believe such things actually do happen.
and now i'm very curious bout that girl.
and i really wanna know what's it bout her.
my hands are cold and forsaken, my heart neglected and broken..
and nothing else can mend it,
nothing else could satisfy but you..
The Girl Behind the Screen, 12:46 PM
biology paper. i'm a loner
Friday, October 07, 2005
there was SS paper today.
suprisingly it was quite okay.
the extra last minute run through of chermin's notes totally helped.
they took such a long time that we didnt even have time to eat.
neh neh.
biology MCQ was overall good.
except that i changed a few correct answers to the wrong ones.
paper 2 section A was a breeze.
somehow everyone was complaining it was super hard.
but i found it quite okay.
shruggs.
after that i was supposed to meet val,
but she was all the way at chua chu kang i just didnt want to go that far.
so i went to tiong and bought lots of tidbits and two boxes of frosties for the twins.
cant wait.
met tong and went back together.
she was still being petty about the fact i skipped school and didnt tell her.
i'm an official loner.
i just realised.
i dont have like real friends in church,
no one to confide in and vice-versa.
i dont have like close, close friends even in school,
and at home,
i dont even really talk to them,
cos they dont seem to trust me.
i'm a loner.
not that that's very bad,
but it just makes me miss all the friends i had,
and all the times we had.
and again,
nothing could ever satisfy but you..
i thought the deal was lose the whole world but have you.
but now,
i dont even have you,
and you dont know how much that sucks.
i am lonely,
so lonely,
and i have nobody to call my own.
i love you more than yesterday and less than tommorrow.
how impactfully true.
and even though you've hurt me so much,
so many times,
i just cant seem to let go.
how many times have you broken my heart,
still i forgave if only you asked?
The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:40 PM
hoping for sonething so large, failure was inevtiable
Thursday, October 06, 2005
today i didnt go to school.
lessons were all pretty useless.
i stayed home and suprised myself by completing my revision.
i'm extremely proud of myself :D
i better do well for bio this time.
i memorised quite alot and finished the whole stack of cards.
glanced through chapter 3 of SS.
so i dont even think i might pass.
oh wells.
i cant wait to see the twins :D
this episode of the show was so nice!!
haha. okay. i cant wait for the next.
and oh! i want my smallville please :D
it's mom's birthday tommorrow.
yeah, i know i wasnt missed.
i'm a loner :(
who cares?
anyway you're not even here.
now i wonder why i hoped for so much,
tried to jump and reach something i knew from the start i couldnt get.
then when i missed and fell short,
how great was that fall,
and i'm still trying to get up,
still trying to peice myself together again...
i cant erase all this mermories,
cant forget all the joy and un-joy.
time doesnt heal all wounds.
at least not these.
there will always be a scar,
always a mark and painful reminder of what happened.
there will always be something inevitably clear to tell me and remind me of all my hurts.
cos when your heart's been through something like that,
the scars dont just magically disappear...
yeah, i'll be missing you.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 9:14 PM
YOU are all that this world's got to offer
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
heya.
today school was alright.
i finally finished bio chapter 10-respiration ( a very annoying chapter ),
only to find out to my dismay that the next is transport in plants.
neh neh.
maths was amusing sitting next to maria and blaring nonsense in her ears,
and hearing her blare nonsense in mine.
like what's new.
"LOOK BEHIND YOU!" :D
lit was like interesting cos it was jo phang.
and she teaches soo much better and interesting than emily koh :S
accounts. bah.
and like we were supposed to have a free period for chinese.
but she just had to take over and teach us chem.
i was quite annoyed.
she teaches sooooo slowly and it's not thorough.
neh neh.
tong bluffed me.
the cousin is a guy.
so she is straight.
i thought she was crooked.
neh.
so embarrassing.
had free period till the end of time cos zoo wasnt in school.
went to town after that.
ate at billy.
tong it's all your fault.
oh i saw the nike shirt the lime green/brown one we wanted to get but couldnt find.
and the rest of the day is a blur cos i dont know why.
maybe it's cos you were on my mind,
you were all i didnt want,
but when you came it's like i couldnt do anymore without you.
let's rewind the clock and turn back time,
pause at the part we met and our love was fine.
let's relive that moment always and forever,
when you were mine and i was yours,
it's like the world was ours,
and nothing could stop us.
but now i'm floating around like a lost soul,
looking for you
cos you're the only one that matters.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:42 PM
but it's time to face the truth, i'll never be with you
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
heya.
my dear sister gail just fixed my blog so yea.
it's doing great now.
i think. heh.
hmm.
the past few days were alright.
going to harbour to study and laugh our asses off at wawan and wani.
hahaha.
funny people.
and really nice too.
the whole top up to the venti and the 20% off and all.
o wells.
and the free drinks even.
wawan was damn funny.
and he believed me that his eyebrow was burnt!!! :D
chinese paper today was like uh.
the writing out one was so screwed at first.
i had to read it like 4 times before understanding what it was.
then after that it was damn easy.
but the close passage and all was killers.
blah.
mr yeo was so freaking loud,
it was so annoying.
i could hear him shouting throughout the whole exam and i was soo annoyed.
in the end mrs lim helped me close the door.
haha. and our invigilator was so useless and slow.
she took like 15 minutes just to give out the paper.
and the people were so nosy and she didnt even say anything.
3B were so lucky.
they got mr sng.
neh neh.
after school i waited for val.
she was having chem.
i was supposed to have too.
but like half the class skipped it cos she cant teach for nuts.
mr yeo ended late again as usual.
neh neh.
the rest of the day was gossip, music and study.
and of course laughs.
but i'm kinda too lazy tp type it out.
i dont know why. so laters.
i wish i could be every lil thing you wanted
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:51 PM
|
|
ANNA CHEN JIEMIN
17 JULY 1990
SAINT THERESA'S CONVENT
GUITARIST AND CHILD OF YAHWEH
SINGAPORE
BASKETBALLER
PATRIOT.NOT
WHITE
The One who gave His life for me
My family
My friends
Big brothers and Little sister :D PJLA
Basketball and basketballers
Writing songs, poems
Music
Coffee (Starbucks over Coffee bean anytime :D)
Ben & Jerry's
Carl's Junior
Sushi
Travelling round the world
Photography
Backpacking
Kids
Grey's Anatomy!! :D
Friends Season 1-10!
Reading!!
Happy endings
Hotties and NICE EYES! :D
OBS!
BLACK
Goodbyes
Satan
Broken promises
Back stabbers
Air pollutants
Abusive parents
Abortions
GOLD
Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and they fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise up against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to enquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavillion: in the secret of His tabernacle shall He hide me; He shall set me upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in His taberncale sacrifices of joy: I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me and answer me.
8 When Thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto Thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek.
9 Hide not Thy face far from me; put not Thy servant away in anger: Thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Thy way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait I say, on the Lord.
|
gail's drawing
caleb the chess champion :D
