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Sunday, November 21, 2004
yay!!! i'm going to thailand!!
till the third, dont try to contact me.
o wells. cant wait to see benny and paul.
they'll be like totally cute.
here i come!!! it's a pity that david and sandy aint there yea.
really gonna miss the trainings and all you guys.
well. i just had youth camp, and it was a total blast.
we had like games and sharing,
amazing race and awesome worship.
anna got stung by a bee, and it got real bad.
the swell was like the size of my palm.
which is like totally huge.
so daniel took her to the hospital.
godwin kept making a fool outta himself.
for now, everyone knows the bus 190 and the armpit hair story,
so it's like real funny.
we found out how jason proposed to sabrina.
haha. it's like so him!!!
daniel worship led on friday night,
and it was like way awesome.
we were touched, and everyone was like crying.
* you dont know how much i miss you. how much i would give to be with you forever.
but even tho you dont say it, it's clear you made a choice.
you know you could me a favour by leaving me alone.
stop looking at me like you do treasure me, like you even loved me.
so acting like you care what i think bout you.
cos it burns so deep in me.
and i miss you so much i cry too much, i begin to wonder.
why do i hurt so much over someone who doesnt even care bout me?
why do i cry so much over someone who doesnt even think bout me?
and why am i so sure, that i would be able to lay down my life for you if the need arises?
and it makes me so much. how would i live my life not seeing you, not hearing from you.
o just to be your friend, and just to lean upon you. i wanna know the secrets of your heart.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:26 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
basically everything is fine.
except for the fact that i'm grounded,
and that i was starved to death yesterday.
now i'm basically rotting
because gail had to come down early to finish things up for youth camp.
so happily, or rather quite unhappily,
we all had to come down too.
i cant wait for youth camp.
but i like know all the stuff,
like even the songs that they are singing.
all because daniel cant remember the lyrics,
so happily i had to help them with projection.
sigh..* shakes head.
since no one will read this,
and the camp is tonight,
i guess it's safe to say that i think there's a mini amazing race?
shh... it didnt come from me..
was supposed to catch taxi on monday,
but i was grounded,
plus i didnt wanana play gooseberry with jo and alicia.
haha. then i was supposed to go with debbie,
and happily i was grounded again.
and then i was supposed to watch it today with amy.
but she hasnt woken up i guess.
but hey.
i got to go out with uncle augustine for lunch,
and this time, the babies were there.
they were ultra cute.
and lebby was an angel sitting with me.
haha. and guess what we ordered.
nasi lemak!!!!
haha. soo gail went to daniel and went nasi lemak.
so he was like "crazy!"
so we went nasi lemak and he was like " what?!"
that guy needs soul searching.
everything's fine now. the rumour's thing blown over.
daniel apologised to me for being so harsh,
and they believe me. * i think?!
o wells.
gail doesnt wanna let me play the guitar grr.
whatever.
i think youth camp's gonna be a blast.
okay. i just forgot what i wanted to say,
so bye for now.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 3:00 PM
Monday, November 15, 2004
From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea,
Creation's declaring Your majesty.
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring,
Every creature unique and the song that it sings.
All exclaiming...
Indescribable, uncontainable.
You placed the stars in the sky and You know by name.
You are amazing God.
All powerful, untamable.
Awestruck we fall to our kness as we humbly proclaim.
You are amazing God.
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go?
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who has imagined the sun and give source to its light?
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night.
None can fanthom.
Indescribable, uncontainable.
You placed the stars in th sky and You know by name.
You are amazing God.
Incomparable, unchangeable.
You see the depths of my heart yet You love me the same.
You are amazing God.
Chris Tomlin and Matt Maher
The Girl Behind the Screen, 7:23 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
i'm banned from training by my mom.
what the heck?!
and i'm brutally accused.
everyone knows the truth except them.
the two people who needs to know the turth.
so now i'm the biggest, bitchiest newpaper gossip columnist,
for the biggest, bitchiest newspaper gossip column.
how exciting.
my dream job.
to be a journalist
yea right!!
not this kinda journalist.
i really dont know why i care.
because you can go ahead and send a real mean message to me.
it's not like you were ever nice.
you like were only nice because i was her sister.
because you were alone.
whereas,
i thought you had changed.
i thought you were the one who deserved kindness,
and i thought you were the better among the two.
i even told others who didnt believe in you that they were wrong.
looks like i was the one making the biggest mistake.
you guys wont believe it even if i told the truth.
you never believed that your mom did say that andrea was a good daughter in law.
you never believed in me and my words.
so why change?
The Girl Behind the Screen, 11:39 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
wrote yet another poem again.
brotherhood was really sad alright.
it was like super sad the way he died sacrificing his life for his brother and country.
you guys should all catch it man.
you wouldnt believe what gail told me.
she said that i should marry an old rich man,
so he dies faster and i get the money.
right. sicko.haha.
i wanna watch taxi.
it comes out on thursday.
wahaha. but it's 8.50.
more expensive. haha.
i'm cheapo.
because i'm broke.
haha. does anyone know this but it's bloody weird.
but it doesnt make a difference cos no one knows who they are.
but heck!! i'm gonna say it anyway.
daniel and matt share the same birthday.
and they both might go to texas next year.
and they both play the guitar and electric guitar.
weird. but the biggest difference?
matt's nicer and he's much better looking.
haha. and he's not a lazy bum.
i did nothing much today,
just watch alias,the chapion and some war show. so yea.
pretty bored.
yay!!! there's training tommorrow.
woohooo!!! yesterday i listened to lots of old songs.
so beautiful.
like lavish my love,
seek me and find Me,
all, all bout You,
Jesus what a Savior You are.
and loads more.
gonna post one everyday.
so for today,
heres seek Me and find Me.
If you seek Me you'll find Me,
If you seek Me with all of Your heart,
Not just a part.
When the road that you travel,
Seems like it never will end,
I'll be your Friend.
And the times that you feel like,
This world is so far from your home,
You're not alone.
Cos I will never depart,
If you seek Me with all your heart.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 7:07 PM
You're the One that gives me shelter,
You're the One that leads me home.
You're the One that gave forever,
Lord, You're all that I know.
And all that I am,
Unto You i surrender,
Lord there is none like You.
I know that I stand,
In the arms of forever,
Lord there is none like You.
With the world upon Your shoulders,
Lord You gave Yourself away.
If the world i knew was over,
I know i have life in the price You paid.
And I will stand,
And I will worship You forever,
For all You are.
And I will stand,
And all to You I will surrender,
I'll worship You forever.
"All" by Joel Houston
The Girl Behind the Screen, 7:00 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
rarr!! the babies were so cute today.
they were like super looper dooper happy.
haha. ken bathed poor shua shua and got soap in his eyes and used cold water?
*shakes head.
we might go stay over tommorrow.
they were like clapping whole day and smiling and laughing?
shua needs deliverance.
he pulled down elaine's tube dress and put his head between lebbie's legs???
sigh.. not right.
hahah. and i caught him on camera.
ooooh!!! we can blackmail him when he grows up.
hahaha. right..
which idiot would lock himself outta the car by putting his keys in the boot???
hah!! daniel that is.
so happily we had to wait for 40 min for elaine to bring us the keys.
and meanwhile we were tortured by his sound of time guitar playing.
gail threw a shoe at him haha.
it rebounded off my hand which at that very moment came out to shut him up,
and nicely, it landed on his head.
how nice. haha.
i want samsung E800C!!! rarr!!!!
haha.
yesterday we went to clarissa's birthday party?
it was the first bbq that we had to do everything and the guys did nothing.
o wells. so we were like eating and cooking and we didnt even sit down.
*shakes head.
and there was this girl who made the guy roast marshmallows for her then kept complaing.
like eww!!! haha.
so happily this guy came an poke me so hard so many times just to tell me what everyone has been telling me.
" YOUR NUMBER'S COMING OUT"
right!!! and the guys couldnt start the fire,
and they didnt wanna let us.
didnt think we could.
how brilliant because they put cardboard into the fire so ashes were like all over.
i think i'm gonna stick to bbqs with guys who at least help out,
people who are kind and grateful, and at least sing a damn birthday song.
//anna
The Girl Behind the Screen, 9:16 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
he messaged me in the dead of the night ticking me off.
saying that he would appreciate it if i stop telling everyone they were together.
spreading rumours he said.
i told him we joked bout it only within the family.
i wanted to just tell him that maybe he should think if i would say such a thing.
because he isnt good enough for her anyways,
and he isnt such a hot topic for gossip,
but i decided to be nice and apologise.
i even said i would take it back.
and happily he come and say we all know it isnt within the family.
whatever alright.
i hate bad mornings just spoils my mood.
okay maybe i was wrong bout laughing bout them to elaine,
but andrea started it first.
all of us merely said they were getting close andf really good friends.
no one ever said they were together.
then happily in the dead of the night some one comes and scolds me.
i wanted to be mean,
but i held it back and apoplogised,
then happily he come and rarr at me even more.
once again i say i am wrong and apologise for it.
if you are unwilling to forgive and forget,
i got nothing to say.
excuse me,
i'm not gonna kowtow to you and lick your feet.
if we are still friends,
happily.
if not then whatever.
i did my best.
stupid day.
the gan eng seng people were very what you call it.
happily come and call addy bossy woman.
rarr back at you huh.
then that shorty come and look at me like that and call my name like it's his house.
happily i would have smacked you back.
but even tho i didnt know what it meant,
tong told me:
but the yellow bus is coming.
some people deserved to be smacked.
dont know why huh.
go and throw the sash on the floor and excpect her to pick it up.
all of a sudden so nice to me,
pick up and gave it to me and thanked me.
two faced.
haha.
i'm very sleepy today.
i slept at 1 and woke up at 5.
couldnt get back to sleep.
we went to jo's house and pratically just slack around.
*i never meant to hurt you, never meant to make you cry.
now that i have, i wish i was the one that was hurt instead,
the one that felt the pain.
//anna
The Girl Behind the Screen, 4:33 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
hey. stayed over at jo's house and played pool.
did nothing much actually.
but now i'm sitting at home all alone.
dont know where gail and steph went anyways.
i really dont have much to talk about except for th fact the babies are so cute.
muahaha.
going out on monday after training.
it's gonna be a blast.
went out on sunday with the babies.
bought the marks and spencers toffees and ate and ate.
suprisingly there's quite alot left still.
saw this totally gay guy.
like eww!!!
went training yesterday,
which was totally fun.
our team which was tong, me, lin, jia bao and brina won all the teams.
so yay!!!
we are the champions my friends.
we'll keep on fighting till the end.
tho' tong lost her cool,
and i missed quite a few beautiful drives and under the baskets,
it was pretty much okay.
started raining so we called it a day.
went to eat steamboat buffet,
and i was bloated like hell.
it was really fun tho
then we went down to jo's house for the planing and stuff.
and yea. pretty much all that happened.
hey. stayed over at jo's house and played pool.
did nothing much actually.
but now i'm sitting at home all alone.
dont know where gail and steph went anyways.
i really dont have much to talk about except for th fact the babies are so cute.
muahaha.
going out on monday after training.
it's gonna be a blast.
went out on sunday with the babies.
bought the marks and spencers toffees and ate and ate.
suprisingly there's quite alot left still.
saw this totally gay guy.
like eww!!!
went training yesterday,
which was totally fun.
our team which was tong, me, lin, jia bao and brina won all the teams.
so yay!!!
we are the champions my friends.
we'll keep on fighting till the end.
tho' tong lost her cool,
and i missed quite a few beautiful drives and under the baskets,
it was pretty much okay.
started raining so we called it a day.
went to eat steamboat buffet,
and i was bloated like hell.
it was really fun tho
then we went down to jo's house for the planing and stuff.
and yea. pretty much all that happened.
*did you even think of me?
or did you consider my feelings?
did you even feel what i feel,
or was everything my imagination?
why do i have to suffer in silence while you walk away and leave me here,
my pillows are soaked in sweat,
the nightmares i get bout you.
and my pillows are soaked in tears.
the nights i cry because of you.
and i wonder why it makes me so mad when i think of you.
and i wonder why cant let go.
but most of all i wonder why you dont feel the same.*did you even think of me?
or did you consider my feelings?
did you even feel what i feel,
or was everything my imagination?
why do i have to suffer in silence while you walk away and leave me here,
my pillows are soaked in sweat,
the nightmares i get bout you.
and my pillows are soaked in tears.
the nights i cry because of you.
and i wonder why it makes me so mad when i think of you.
and i wonder why cant let go.
but most of all i wonder why you dont feel the same.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 3:04 PM
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ANNA CHEN JIEMIN
17 JULY 1990
SAINT THERESA'S CONVENT
GUITARIST AND CHILD OF YAHWEH
SINGAPORE
BASKETBALLER
PATRIOT.NOT
WHITE
The One who gave His life for me
My family
My friends
Big brothers and Little sister :D PJLA
Basketball and basketballers
Writing songs, poems
Music
Coffee (Starbucks over Coffee bean anytime :D)
Ben & Jerry's
Carl's Junior
Sushi
Travelling round the world
Photography
Backpacking
Kids
Grey's Anatomy!! :D
Friends Season 1-10!
Reading!!
Happy endings
Hotties and NICE EYES! :D
OBS!
BLACK
Goodbyes
Satan
Broken promises
Back stabbers
Air pollutants
Abusive parents
Abortions
GOLD
Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and they fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise up against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to enquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavillion: in the secret of His tabernacle shall He hide me; He shall set me upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in His taberncale sacrifices of joy: I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me and answer me.
8 When Thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto Thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek.
9 Hide not Thy face far from me; put not Thy servant away in anger: Thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Thy way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait I say, on the Lord.
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