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tong: i know. i totally feel like i'm moving away from the team.
not that i want to.
i mean you guys mean so much to me.
but ever since he suspended me,
i never really had the chance to talk to you guys.
i feel so affected.
and i cant even watch you guys train.
even i were to,
it just hurts so much that i cant train with the team.
i mean.
why has the team become so split up?
where is the family that we built,
the confidence we could find in each other.
like we used to cheer each other up so much.
like no matter how down you are when you see your team mates you cheer up.
yet,
where is all that right now?
i want so much for us all to be happily together.
yea we're together now,
but not really happily.
next year's the lst year ever together playing that match.
and i dont think some of them even treasure the fact that they get to train.
i really feel like shouting sometimes,
when i see so many people skip training.
it makes my blood boil.
i guess they'll never understand what it means to be family,
how lucky they are to be able to train.
how lucky they are to be a part of this family.
stc basketball___03
when we're together_____one big family
the passion____respect the game
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The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:17 PM
my are you so insensitive. loving you sucks my energy.you just cant see it cant you?
The Girl Behind the Screen, 7:17 PM
you: you know what i think, i think you're such an insecure idiot.
why do you have to pretend to be nice?
why do you have to look for someone to like you?
if it comes, it comes,
if not let it go.
you know what?
i thought you changed.
i actually began to accept you again.
and now i feel like a fool.
an idiot.
a pawn in your game of chess.
//anna
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The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:57 PM
hey you. thanks for the bottle. love it. and whoever you are, like no? i like so do not have a crush on pea? leave that to her please. today was me and gwen and lil pea's outing. we went to cine first, wanted to catch a movie, either Le Corites or Raising Helen. the timing was inappropriate. in the end, we just had burger king there. we were bugged by some chij tp people to do some project survey, we ended up just walking off? and i felt like totally mean. wanted to go back but, o wells. what would i say? haha. like i want to help you do a survey? walked to heeren, and started walking and walking. i couldnt find any wallets except for the one i saw the other day? contemplating if i should buy it, but its so girly. oh. and i saw a new ripcurl cuff. it was awesome. walked to the neo print place, and decided that neo prints were bleagh! hated the new look of heeren, like so sofisicated wanna be. it was scary, cos town was so deserted, except for the polka dot people who were like everywhere? haha. right. later it was raining so heavily that after waiting for a bus we decided to cab down to "what's that place called?' the cab driver was talking nonsense, and we had a tough time trying to laugh. but because gwen was there, we ended up laughing anyway. went there to see picks, but there were no picks. went to the taylor guitar shop, and there were like so many guitars, and they were like super nice sounding and cool. but there were to expensive i didnt dare really play them. the atmosphere was like so tense, so in the end, i just picked up the cheapest guitar, strummed abit, and we walked out. we decided that gwen should save her four bucks she spends on a cab everyday, and then she would have 960bucks. and i decided that i wanted a piggy bank. dont you think it's cool? we walked to PS and then bought marshmallows and m & m. ate and ate, haha. and there was this guy, hell tall. i walked past him, and my elbow brushed his butt? embarassing. like totally. went to yamaha to look around. and then we went to look for my piggy bank. we were on the escalator, and gwen looked down, and she started screaming with laughter. turns out there was a whole sale on lingerie. haha. right. not amusing. we went to world of sports, and there was this cool black and pink addidas hand bag. it was only 25 bucks? haha. so we went to this place to see if there were piggy banks. the people in there were like ah bengs, and we saw like really cool cds. finally we went out, and we all burst out laughing. then pea decided she needed to go home. and i wanted the toilet. we all walked in, not more than five steps later we all turned around at the same time, started laughing, and walked out. gosh! it stank like hell. i went into a big big toilet, and the door couldnt lock. haha. gwen guarded the door for me. later all of us went into the same cubicle? and we closed the door. lil pea was like can we go out? i'm like why? it's not like we're having sex. then she made alot of noise, ang gwen was laughing like a hyenna. i was like the more noise you make the sicker it sounds. haha. we ran out of the toilet and stood there laughing. we went on the train, and at exactly the same time, me and gwen reached out our hands to grab the same bar at the same spot. apparently she found that funny. we were laughing for the whole journey. i told her i would be too lazy to blog, and i said i would put here, refer to gwen's blog. turns out she and alicia were gonna put. refer to anna's blog. hmmph! so i end up the one blogging today. anyways gotta go now. Au Revoir! The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:00 PM
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The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:30 PM
i am totally lost now. mr patrick has declared that he would not lift the ban. now i get more free time whee! NOT! and then i'll be so totally aimless. and guess what i'll be thinking of? you. you. you. right. what a fascinating subject. but i cant do anything. can i? i cant think at all. whenever i wanna think, its back to basketball or you again. will you stop invading my thoughts? i demand an end to this. i pick up my pen to write. and all i can put down is a confession. or your stupid name. i cant figure it out. like i cant ever be not thinking. consciously or sub consciously . only that when i try to think, there's a sudden explosion. and you reign again. i hate the number three. i've always thought of it as a pathetic amount. but not anymore. now the number three is placed in front of me, and it seems that there's no end to it. i'm really lost. why is he so hard hearted may i know? o. i remember. he's a male. Decrease me. Decrease me. Decrease me. Decrease me. till there's no more left of me. The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:52 PM
sometimes what you think you want is really the last thing you'll enjoy one earth. you scare me, not how you look at me but how you make me feel. it wasnt even happening, just a fiction of my imagination, and i ended up in tears. am i so vulnerable before you? i shouldnt have went to school today. i got myself into shit. but i had oral, so i had to go. yet tell me how could i resist the temptation of balling. it's just so addictive, i just didnt know how to stop. but how is it related to me getting banned? it's so unreasonable, that the love for something could cause it to be taken from you. i couldnt stop cursing him. i wanna eat pork chop. NOT! it's unclean man. and joanne dared to offer him cookies. like as if she was the one who baked it. i objected, but she went ahead. wasted mine and debbie's cookies on him. our group went to film the music vudeo for my project. it was fun. but not so fun compared to the training they were having. the story. they were happily training, and our dear sharon came along. i went to play ball with her. he scolded me? and said i should go home. it was so clear he didnt want me around her. so i sat down and watched them train. he kept quiet. training ended and he went back, and we went to play ball with sharon. he came back, asked me if i was stupid, and then said i was suspended for three months, and that he probably wasnt gonna let me play. sharon started cursing him. i cursed him too. but it was more of shock and hurt then anger. he declared i was not to touch a basketball. we helped ms marten rescue a cat. it was so fun. like totally. we had a water fight. and she was bit by it, and had six holes in her hand. it was cool. we went to jo's house to play NBA. haha.we won the state championship. we kept chopping from three point and dunking. i was the star player. Name: Anna McVaughan Height: 7"6 Age: Born in 1990 Years pro: 23 Team: LA Lakers Birthcity: Vancouver, Columbia Nickname: Showstopper we won every game, and they had this to say " able to hit even with a hand in his face." haha. and, " showstopper with a big time rejction", cos i kept blocking the shots. not to be seen touching a basketball? horrible. my happy times are with the team. ( and you ) and they can help me forget. but now it's you i am to forget. three months of treading through school, the sound of a basketball in my head. talk about motivation to jump from a building. my blgo should be" back to the dead" i woke up in tears last night, reality attacking me even in my dreams. i went to school to play ball, basketball calming me. and suddenly i was reeled back into tears. thrown into prison for three months. The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:13 PM
been having a terrible back ache,
and a consistent throbbing pain in my head.
o wells. i watched friends again yesterday,
and i'm really gonna miss it.
sigh. the next closest thing to it is the joey version.
he's such a male bimbo.haha.
cant wait for smallville to be back.
my youngest sister's so annoying.
she keeps messing up my room and then i have to tidy it up.
argh! and there is something wrong with blogger these days.
i cant seem to publish my blog.
i just fininshed my lit project.
supposed to make a haunted house.
i made a lil clay castle.
it's kinda pretty come to think of it.
but that's not the point.
it has to be haunted. haha.
which reminds me,
mrs chan hasnt returned me my portfolio.
i'm in a mood for writing now,
and since i dont have it with me,
i write anywhere i can find a blank space,
which really is annoying cos i've lost two of my poems already.
she better be taking good care of it,
cos that book's really nice,
and it cost me a bomb.
plus the fact it has my writing in it,
and my pictures of michael rosenbaum. 0.o
haha. o wells. lil' pea's mad.
she wants me to buy her more m&ms cos i ate the ones i bought.
cant blame me.
i had nothing to munch on.
but who cares?
when i saw you,
the impossible happened.
my heart both sank and sang.
you broke my heart,
and mended it again.
i dont think your skin reacts,
like mine's when i hear your voice.
did it ever occur to you,
how much you mean to me?
you invade my thoughts endlessly,
whenever you please.
the way you look at me makes me shiver,
despite my very thick sweater.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:20 PM
hey there. went to school to self train today. ended up slacking alright, and i got tong so angry with me. i'm so sorry yea. hah. she was very 'dont know what you call it' today. dont know whats with her. i thought she changed already. and she's back to her ways again. maybe you should stop picking on li wei when you realise you're doing the same things as her. only that you are more devoted to the game. i dont mean to criticise you, but why cant you be more tolerant like debbie? huh? okay i'm not better off but i'm trying. and i dare say i'm better than last year. but now you just keep shouting at me for nothing. i have been trying to be tolerant, ever since that friday. but you just keep picking on her, let her wear men's clothes if she wants. you also wear men's clothes iif you didnt realise. and plus she is a B-U-N-G, bung. are you one? i know you aspire to be one. if you think you become more likable and whatsoever, go ahead. no one's stopping you. cos i really dont know you anymore. you are so caught up in that social life of yours to stop and examine. tong: if you are bout to tag something bout that, stop. there's an explaination. and oh. i'm very sorry i was so slack today, and i didnt train properly. i'll be better next time. i promise. is it me? or is her? why do i keep getting into quarells? i need to do some soul searching i figure. why am i so aggitated with joanne? so intolerable of her? why am i so slack in training? so passionate yet so cold? i wonder. have i changed for the better? or have i changed for the worst? have i been tolerant of others, and less critical of them? have i reflected on what i did to others, not what i did to them? do i set a good example, or am i a stumbling block? hmmp! lil' pea cancelled our date again. even after i took back my words. i'm angry okay. i even already bought the m&m. you wait you lil' pea, i'll get you one day. haha. i kept teasing alicia about her endless admirers. boy was it funny! haha. tong: now i know why mr lodge is always angry with archie, it's because he always does things wrongly. even with a right heart.
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i just watched cinderella story. its so nice! but so cliche? haha. i told tong that chad michael murray died. i made up a crap ending on how hilary duff got angry, and he chased after her and got into an accident. haha. serves her right for making up fake endings and telling it to claubin. ahaha. i saw this cool billabong wallet. even though i hate blillabong. okay not exactly hate. but yea. alicia, it was pink and black. how sweeeet! i saw sylvia today. she was dressed up very nicely. with ashley's jacket 0.o yay! patrick says that he's coaching us again. he thought that we didnt want him to coach us. how weird. must be a communication breakdown. we thought it was the other way round. o wells. i baked more cookies yesterday. it was fun. haha. irritating.i was messaging debbie, then my mom kept pestering me, and i accidentally sent it to daniel okay. how annoying. i think he is such a big fat jerk. how could he do that to her? beats me. The Girl Behind the Screen, 4:06 PM
still wondering. why cant i breathe whenever i think about you? why cant i speak whenever i talk about you? is it possible? what i'm thinking of. is it even logical? is it true, what i fantasise about? i dont know. tell me about it. The Girl Behind the Screen, 4:27 AM
hey there. today was a pretty fun day. alicia kept calling and calling. we're gonna have a blast tommorrow. i baked more cookies for patrick. and i wrote eric and pat an email about all the stuff going on. and yea. waiting for eric to reply. o wells. the babies were so cute today. and yea. debbie i think we are right. someone thought alicia was my boyfriend. how hilarious. haha. it rained today. i wonder how the tent is doing. i kept embarrasing myself today okay. my face was so hot. and i felt like digging a hole for myself. there's so much things happening around me now. and i'm so confused. i cant blog about it, but i need an outlet. but why? all i can say is that i love you. sarah: hey girl. you take care alright. and i'll be here if you need anything. i dont know what else i can do, cos we've drifted so far apart ever since i did something i shouldnt have, said things i shouldnt. i would take them back if i could. but now i cant. and so o wells. i can only make up for it now and in the future.
may i ask why guys like to think that girls think guys who smoke are cool? i'm puzzled. because we actually hate smokers. oh. and i think the russian seige thingy was awful. the children and their parents are like so pitiful. terrorists suck!
The Girl Behind the Screen, 11:24 PM
today was hilarious.
i was sitting down there,
bored to death cos debbie and jo was late.
mr danny and me were shooting baseline,
and i kept chopping.
haha. the auntie asked if he was teaching me,
and he said,
no. she's teaching me.
haha. o wells
i pity tong.
every five minutes,
mr sng made them do pumping
and scream their lungs out.
haha. then here's the best part.
they had to pitch tents.
and you should have seen tong's haha.
so i went over and help.
i told her at the rate they were going,
they would wake up,
and her friend would tell her.
tong: arent the stars beautiful tonight?
haha. o my. so i went to help.
others took 5 people but i finished it faster than them.
muahaha.
so mr sng comes along,
and i'm sitting there finishing up the last part,
tong goes my tent is beautiful
sharon tong goes;
dont be arrogant.
and i was like.
totally! i did all the work.
haha.
and mr sng inspects the tent,
and sees me there.
haha. and he goes like.
anna! no helping.
haha. and he asked did you help?
when i said yes,
he went like tong come here.
how much help did you get?
tong says "alot"
haha. and mr sng says he's gonna get her to dismantle it.
tong being tong,
she starts whining.
haha. so mr sng decides to chase me away instead.
thanks me for the kind gesture. ( his favourite phrase dont you think? )
o wells. mr sng rocks.
so i join the track girls in captain ball.
it's totally fun cos all they do is scream.
so when someone hits the ball out ther clap.
so i go in and intercept alot of passes,
trying to look for someone to pass to,
but there's no one.
why? they're all cheering for me.
thanks for the king gesture anyway.
haha. hilarious.
we go to jo's house,
and decide to call bel and pop pop.
we end up baking cookies which is like totally fun?
when me and debbie are the only ones doing the work?
we found a very hilarious secret.
right debbie?
haha. o wells. cant help it.
and hey. one more thing.
men are from mars,
women are from venus.
but joanne's from pluto.
how could he do this to us.
it is not fair.
i told you he prefered the sec ones?
but he was so sweet to us.
and during the obstacle course thing,
he held our hands to steady us,
but didnt dare touch them.
who are they.
those we do not speak of.
do not cross the border.
but it's totally heart breaking.
he was the one who brought through those trainings..
he means as much as ms mak and eric means to us.
but why then this?
doesnt he know that it saddens us,
that all our coaches are leaving one by one?
but we started the team together.
i dont know
patrick is just so special.
even tho sometimes he seems like a jerk,
he means everything for our own good.
even when he's sick he comes to train us.
rain or shine.
but lately it seems that it's not that way anymore.
why? i know you'll never see this pat.
but the team loves you too.
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The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:31 PM
but why?
because i'm so patient with her?
but when people get irritated with her i stand up for her.
when she's sad i talk to her.
but why is she so impatient with me?
dont know why.
i played ball yesterday.
with tong,
and then later lam and her friends.
i was rather on form yesterday.
i dared to drive,
and put in pretty decent balls.
sylvia's friends were fun,
and i must say ashely wasnt what i thought he would be.
i played from 10 to 6.30?
and now my legs are aching.
i did sit ups on the slanted surface thingy,
which is good cos i think i just had to much for lunch.
now she's into olden font too.
never mind.
this is a forbidden topic.
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