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Friday, April 30, 2004

saddened!! gwen!!!!! rudy say he cant give his email. so sad! crying. crying. haha. man. my sister's friend got it cos she like ran up to him and like kissed him?! like after the conference. sick! haha. i shall hack into her email. haha. evil smile. ! o wells. he's getting engaged that's why he cant give. i'm so saddened!!!!! cry. hmm. too bad. he's better than your dumb travis. haha. had a fun time today with you. reminded me of YAH. o wells. i guess that's gone now. cos sheralynn's gone. left the two of us. haha. enjoy your T ravising. haha.. o wells. like i said. you can see i'm back.english paper was real easy. i wrote my composition about basketball. it was on a precious gift that went missing. cheesy smile. we played ball today during recess 5-5 with thhe B-DIV. best tym of ma life man. forever. i had a great time today, with my fwen kwan. haha. first, we went ikea.ate hot dogs, and ate hot dogs. was sitting there and looking at her pictures. long hair, short hair, no hair ( baby ) haha. so funky. haha. she wore sunglasses which covered like half her face?! haha. saw this guy who was so wanna be. in like jersey and stuff, and then look down, diao. wore like checkered shorts., which totally looked like boxers?! we saw two SMSS people whom we would later see again... haha. right gwen?! and also...... gwen was drooling over this caucasian girl. haha. and guy. haha. she said she liked his curly wurly long hair. so i asked her to grow long hair, and she said still cant cos it like wont curl. so i asked her to go perm it. haha. hilarious. so weird. then we went walking walking walking, or you can call it kaikaiying like gwen. ( however you spell it. ) all the way to queensway. then we saw a lot of nice stuff, this bandanna, the lebron james jersey ( black and red version ), shirt blah blah. haha. then this short bunk-looking SMSS person came up to gwen and then asked her for her number cos her friend wanted to 'make friends' with her. haha. so hilarious. and gwen was like blushing. so funny. later we were on the escalator, and gwen was one step above me and she tip toed and went. " hah! i'm taller." and then she started screaming. haha. i was like what?! " i got cramm!! " haha. loserfied. stupid old spastic woman. and everything ugly we saw she went. i buy for you. so she picked up a pink converse shoe and went i buy for you. so i picked up a flowery high top and said. "haha. nah! for you! " haha. i win! blah blah.there's always this crazy old man at queensway, who when he sees us goes, ' you from convent of holy saint jesus ah?! " we were laughing like nuts " sec 4?! science stream?! " haha. i was like since when did gwen look tall enough to be sec 4. hmm. is gwen smart enough to be in science stream. haha. roflmao. so super funnily crazy. o wells. had a all night musicians meeting, and before that, i was playing the drums all alone, and after that, i opened the door and saw this guy in totally black with some kinda white face, and i just went like 'argh!' in his face. haha, turned out it was daniel. he was super shocked. i'm laughing now. laughing like some crazy hyenna in front of this dumb living thing. i think my mom thinks i'm nuts. gosh so superly embarassing. man! haha. imagine doing that to your friend's boyfriend, you ex friend, a person whom you dont really like, and a person who doesnt really like you either. haha. embarrassing?! totally. o wells. kept doing wrong stuff. haha. kept bumping into him and stuff. went into the room to find my frined, and was like talking, and he was like staring at me half awake. crap. haha. o wells. somehow i dont feel tired. i just wanna go play ball. * i'm still thinking of you. thinking of what we could be, if all of that didnt take place.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:10 PM


Thursday, April 29, 2004

haha. gwen is going crazy over a guy. T ravis. unbelievable. she's a pillowfile too. haha. o wells. she kept drawing weird stuff on my bible book. o wells. drew some ugly mr peanut. dig my pencil box for pen and all of a sudden went bang.! what the heck. both of us want the same phone and same basketball shoe. haha. and1 holey shoe, and 7200. i want! gem is getting it man! i'm broke. how to buy?!!! shit! o well. got nothing else to say. tata. I WANT CULT! I WANNA PLAY BASKETBALL!

The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:47 PM


Wednesday, April 28, 2004

i'm talking to gewn and her nick says she's castrated.i asked her what's with the nick; she said why cant. i said. cos you dont have a dick that's why.! haha. crappy.then out of nowhere came: "For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church." - Ephesians 5:29 like hmmm. so this is what she says. gwen:im holy. me:yea right.you arent holy.you dont even go to church gwen:i do okie me:like once a year on christmas day. ok. i'll give you credit. twice. on easter day also. cos you wanna see the bunny. haha. hilarious. went to buy my portfolio today. finally.and we saw this guy who looked like michael rosenbaum. he was so god damn tall. and he was bald too. haha. so funny. joleen kanna caught for all her earings and stuff, then ms chen went like, there's alot of things i would like to do. the weathers so hot. ( i thought she would say i like to wear shorts to school ) i would love to wear a swimsuit. haha. joleen went like nuts. o wells. got nothing to do.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:28 PM


Tuesday, April 27, 2004

heys. lal. today was bad and good day. haha. caught again for my belt. urgh. dont know why. too low. o wells. i went mad. haha. and like so not fair. rachel got 7200. for only 300 bucks. man! i want! haha. yay! i didnt have to stay back with mrs chan today, so that was a good thing. mr tan told us this like super lame joke. cos there's this classical guy named yoyoma. so he asked: what do you call a rapper who studies classical music? haha, he said yo! yo! momma! haha. like so corny. he said that it wasnt a good idea if he said if you keep quiet i'll tell you a joke, he realised no one would be quiet cos they didnt wanna hear the joke. haha. so loser. that's for telling lame jokes. o wells. during art, we asked ms ng what happened to ms veeno, and it so happened she injured herself. so i went: so did she like fall down the stairs or did she like just sit on her hand. haha. so mean.i did my art and i'm so happy. its basketballs all over, with fire at the back and ants all over! ms ng made jo do her a candle. jo gave me a candle!!!!!!!!!!! its red, then she carved my name on it and coloured it black. so nice. and it smells nice too! haha. and i got kicked because of it, cos tong was jealous she didnt have one. she hit me, and she hurt her hand.so poor thing. haha.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 4:22 PM


Monday, April 26, 2004

i hate dc. i hate dc. i hate dc. o gosh. mrs chan wants me to stay back with her everyday for two hours. till the end of the year. which means it'l be 352 hours more, which also means it'll be 21120 minutes more, which mean, more pure torture of 1267260 seconds. gosh. horrendous. so much of my life with her. yuck. man. i was so angry. i got like so angry. after science remedial, cos of mrs chan. she wanted to see me and stuff, so mr tan kept me back, yea. saw her face and nearly went beserk. and mr tan messaged me and apologised to me, for God knows what. maybe he felt guilty, but it was like totally not his fault. the first time a teacher ever apologises. feels like totally wierd. no matter how wrong they are, no matter what. never. that's why we all say mr tan rocks. haha. amy got her contacts stuck in her eyes, so mr tan had to tell her what to do. then she was like cannot come out! haha. so he asked her to go into the gents and he helped her take it out. so i saw him and i went like.. so, mr tan just what did you and amy do in the toilet. haha. he blushed like mad and quickly defended himself: eh, ms mak was in there. today, we were at the netball court and kim asked if i could help her with her expository, and she asked me to try forge her handwritng. haha. so hilarious. i went like: ok man. thats it. someone break my wrists! haha. tong was laughing like mad .haha. man! o wells. tong was playing the tetris game ( again ) and she placed the thingy wrongly and she went like shit! paralex error. haha. wierd. but i guess you have to be there to find it funny. as for now, me and tong does. haha. TONG ROCKS! i wonder. will anything ever be the same again? me, you? i just want everything to be like it used to be. so happily. i want the team that was in 2003. yet, i guess that is totally impossible isnt it? i talked to gwen and it turns out she might not be leaving. but tong says that its no use.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:28 PM


Saturday, April 24, 2004

heys.just came back from anne's party. haha. it was so funny. before that, me and majella left our invitation card in school, so she asked me to get the address from mr tan. i was like snuffy here. so he said "you finally admitted." i said, at least i admit, not like you, balding and refuse to admit." o wells. eric was there mr tan was there. haha. played truth or dare, and the baseball hit his er hem. haha. we made him sing the school song. haha. it was hilarious. haha. i laughed till i rolled on the ground. i said. we present, mr tan, UNCUT, UNCENSORED, and UNTALENTED. haha. he was blushing like a lobster. haha. he was offered beer, and he turned it down, saying he didnt drink, and i was like or you cant. hui yu said, i cant wait till he gets drunk. haha. and i went, what, you gonna pull him into the room or something? haha. he got drunk after ONE can. like so lousy. haha. we watched mvp and yea, for those of you who know, xiao xi's father is totally bald on the top. haha. so i looked at him and said. mr tan. you in five years time. haha. he was so embarrased.o my. other then that, the day passed uneventfully.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:34 PM


Friday, April 23, 2004

i'm a crazy pink bunny, but i'm a pink bunny which goes roarr! i'm a crazy pink bunny, but i'm a pink bunny which goes rarr! it's raining, it's pouring, kim is snoring, she went to bed, and bumped her head, and couldnt get up in the morning. rain, rain go away, come again another day, basketballers wanna play. rain, rain come again, go away another day, ballers just dont wanna run. man. today was horrible. it was upsetting. its so. i cant say. everytime i kep thinkg of how he was replacing us, i got so upset. everytime i saw jia bao, i wanted to punch her, i wanted to kill myself. how can she replace me? everytime i tried to explain i cried. i shouted at mr loo. i shouted at mr tan. i kicked tingxi when she stepped in my foot. i was just so worked up. i dont know what to do. i was so happy i could train, till i tried explaining to hy. lunch was so depressing. i kept crying. tong was i a terrible mood. joanne was so sad because of what happened at home. i lay down on the court. i started crying to myself so much. joanne joined me. i told her everything and i started crying again. then debbie came. i went back to efl. the stupid sec ones started coming. i was so fed up. the mac pig followed and lay down. we were so angry we just went right to the end of the court. it started raining. we were just staring up in the clouds. i saw a bunny. i saw a dog. but it was like everything dissolved and the words basketball 2003 will rock forever. it was depressing. i started to think of them leaving. this year's a bad year. i cried again. later me and jo started singing. all kinda songs. after that i cheered up. we lay in the rain. it was terribly cold. we heard HEAVY footsteps and we thought it was shi yun. i nearly shouted at her and asked her to go away. it was a good thing i didnt. it was tong. right then the only people i wouldnt have asked to go away were kim and tong. she talked with us for a while then left. i felt much better. we got all kinda comments from people walking by. i didnt care. we got up, and started sprinting across the hard court shouting. when training started, he made us do some thingy. he pit himself against me, got everyone to watch. he made me do it over and over again. he was so obviously picking on me. i had to do it so many times. he took the ball and purposely slammed it straight right into my chest. i couldnt breathe. it hurt everytime i took a breath. he made me do it again. when i pivotted my foot, he said i looked like i was doing lion dance. when i didnt he said i'm like a peice of block. he went against me. how was i supposed to pass. i could pass but there was no one he put there so i could pass to. everyone could see i could. he said i sucked. he made kim do it two times. against SEC ONES. everyone had to do it against sec ones. two times or five at most. he made me do it so many times. he said they were wrong and just moved on. he said we should give our butt, and when i did it correctly, and her feet was moving, she fell down and he said " thank you.anna. travelling." halow. just because she's sec one doesnt mean she's right all the time. even she said it was her fault. when i started explaining to kim, he turned around and said " good anna continue talking. dont learn ". and judy was talking and laughing and he didnt say anything. i hate this you. i cant take it. i dont know, i'm just so lost. i dont wanna break down anymore. i dont wanna torture myself. but sometimes i just feel like telling you what i feel, i just feel like quitting, like crying. why? i wish you would see this cos i cant tell you what i feel in person. you would scream at me. i'm lost in this world of pain. somebody save me.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:49 PM


Thursday, April 22, 2004

all i want for christmas is my hair to grow. fucking irritating sister. damn idiotic. arghh! shudders. doesn't he see it is IRRITATING IT IS UNFAIR that he takes one of us out just to put in his fucking sec ones. why? cos he thinks they got potential. what the heck. we trained so fucking hard. they havent even done physical yet. they cant even catch a bloody ball. why jia bao? please. she cant catch for nuts. even if you wanna put someone in its yi ling. she got so much more skill and potential. so irritating. please. all you wanna do is let your BELOVED sec ones play. which they cant. i finally see why she hates you so much she wants to quit. its something in you that wasnt there before. its called BIASEDNESS. say what you like i wont believe it. so what if they got potential. have you even thought about us? we train so hard cos we wanna go somewhere and then you come and take the sec twos out cos you think they got potential. so what if there's potential when its not developed? you're costing us a game. just becos you love them so much. ok. fine. if you say they give no problems its not true for everyone. look at jiabao. she got into trouble with suppiah. what the heck? pulling down judy's pants. get a life. so dumb. amanda also got into trouble. dont come and give me reasons. cos there is evidence against it. i know you care but you dont show it. i dont feel it sharon doesnt feel it. gwen doesnt feel it. damn it. its all full of crap. you've changed. and you know what. i used to love and respect you like hell. i said you were the best teacher. not anymore. cos you aren't what you used to be. you are biased. what is this. we used to greet you talk to you, and no matter what you'll manage a smile. now you just walk away and go to your bloody beloved sec ones. damn it. why dont you just chase me away. chase us away. like you did to sharon and gwen. then you can put all the sec ones in. cos they got so much potential. ughhh! talk crap. it's like what i told tong. putting in the sec ones cos they got potential is like me telling her. 'tong dont cry. i can give you money. but you wait. only few years later' its rushing things. its like impossible. its like taking a seed to plant when you dont even have the plant to produce the seed. ok. maybe because the reason is we suck. i dont know how to say it. but its just unfair to us, we train like the toughest in school. honestly. the physical we have now is peanuts to what we did in the past. halow. we train like mad, we bleed, we cry, we ache, we get injured. we still cling on. and now a bunch of new people come in and you place them over us. i will seriously question you sanity if you place judy as vice captain. kim said that the world is like that. only the best will survive. i agree with her. but they are NOT the BEST. damn it. where's the sanity left in this world. where's the sanity left in you?

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:04 PM


Tuesday, April 20, 2004

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? anna chen jiemin. so gross. haha. 2. WHAT KIND OF PANTS ARE YOU WEARING NOW? hahah. basketball converse shorts! yay! 3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? passion 4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? House: 3983 Handphone: 4697 5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE: dinner. 6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? if i was a crayon, i would break myself. haha. 7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? ummm. lettme see. WARM. 8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? jia jia liang teh! haha. and kim. 9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? face? 10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? who sent me this? 11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? sad happy angry disappointed. 12. FAVORITE DRINK? CULT!!!!!!!!! its so addictive! haha. 13. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? CULT haha. its not alcohol. vodka lime. 14. FAVORITE SPORTS? basketball.
15. HAIR COLOR? Black-brown.? nonono. BLACK. 16. EYE COLOR? Black-brown. i guess? 17. DO U WEAR CONTACTS? nopies 18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? my friend says i'm from a father abraham family. ok here it goes. older brother- 21 older sister- 19 older sister- 17 younger sister- 13 younger sister- 11 19. FAVORITE MONTH? july. haha. my birthday, competitions, yea. 20. FAVORITE FOOD? pepper steak, sushi, pasta, jap stuff. 21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? passion of christ 22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? when all of US come back together our old self. happyily singing our songs. 23. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? no i just say wanna go walk walk? haha. other than that no i dont ask people out. 24. DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY? Happy! actually both. 25. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer- i can still play ball winter- it's holidays, and i can throw snowballs at you. 26. HUGS OR KISSES? ? friendy huggg. depends tho. 28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? ? chocolate. 29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? ayyy. write back? how? 30. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? noone. 31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? noone toos. 32. WHAT BOOK(S) ARE YOU READING? textbooks. bible. haha. 33. WHAT'S ON YOUR DESKTOP? boooooooooks. papppperrrs. computer. phone. blahblahblah. im bored. 34. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? board games? grow up. 35. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? play my guitar. read my bible. 36. FAVORITE SMELLS? actually, the smell of a basktball indoor court, NBA, smell of YOU. 37. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? i think if different things.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 9:28 PM

heys. todays 20th april. the day where senior citizens work in Mcdonalds all across the country and piss everyone off. haha. me and jo went to eat and everyone one there was at least 50. stupid woman kept forgetting our orders. we talked. about HIM. about THEM. hate him. not really but for being what he is. he doesnt know his change has caused a change. come on. everyone's gone. it's just the few of us. cant we be like the way we used to be? i hate it. i dont wanna break down. i told ms mak what we felt bout him. its so frustrating. she just sat there and managed a sad smile.i dont know what to do. tong: please dont break down. we need you. i need you. you know the best play. and you the best. dont cry, be strong, i know its hard, but it hurts us to see you like that. i dont know how to say that. we just sit there helplessly, and nothing seems to work. i feel like breaking down too. no one thought it would ever turn out like that. sharon: you'll always be remebered. you seriously have so much you could do. take care always. we'll still be friends i hope. gwen: my crap pal. haha. forever laughing for mo rhyme or reason. we'll hear it lesser now. its sad. dont leave man. but i guess its up to you. so yea. aye captain! and yupp. we'll still be there for you.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 9:03 PM


Friday, April 16, 2004

heys. just came back from a match, ( i bathed already )we were thrashed. 41-25 i think. i'm not happy with my performance. i played like shit and i just realised how weak we are both physically and mentally. kim's down, jo's injured. bunny hit her head. she was our star player. 10 points by her. the only thing i'm happy that i did was to smack the ball away during a fast break, and defense around 4-5 times. yay! haha. its kinda weird. and i blocked one or two shots. whoa! haha. o wells. i play bad. i'm feeling so small cos they are like so totally hungry for the ball. sigh. if jo played like shit, i played like diarrhea.i got a tan. and its nice cos i put some paint on my hand, drew a basketball and 07, and when the thingy came out there was a mark. totally nice. haha. o wells. i'm feeling terrible. i dont see why they quit. i dont see why he leaves, why HE is scaring them. i'm in no position to comment, no position to hate. but i think its sad, its unfair. everything. i may be too harsh on them, it might not be my job, but i dont know but its something i do with the decision of kim. we work so hard for those jerseys. we sweat, we bled, we cried, we ached, we died. and then they just get to wear OUR jerseys. GWEN'S and SHARON'S jerseys. tong: hey girl cheer up. its not your fault and for eveything you've done we had never once blamed you. cry no more k. there's nothing you can do. es. it wont be the same, but changes come i hate those changes, but we have to deal with them somehow, always know the team will be forever behind you. the sec twos will. at least i will. kim jordan: heys. it aint your fault we lost today. you played well i must say. much better than me, considering it to be the first time you play in a match having to control it and they playing 1-3-1. yea. dont blame yourself, cos if anyone's to blame its me. yea. i know how much you played your heart out. at least you can be proud of that fact. but for me, yes i played heart, but i'm still wondering if it was my best. cheer up girl. you'll always be our jordan. wooh!

The Girl Behind the Screen, 6:43 PM


Thursday, April 15, 2004

heys. just watched smallville. haha. yay! i get to play tommorow. haha. went for the lit play again. so funny. haha, the woman was the fountain and before she did what she was supposed to do, i did it. haha. she was like "she knows what happen next." haha. the guy kept laughing at us. haha. sit with li wei so embarrasing. haha. the that koheela was the nurse. the gal said you must be a dancer. i said. you must be kidding! haha. we all laughed. the girl was kinda like tong. roaring away, kneeling down acting sad. haha. it was fun. haha. when we ended, ryan was like, hey. thanks to the noisy girls at the back. oops! haha. we laughed again. so many went to get their autographs and haha. we went to play ball. it rained. yea. we taught lin and judy stuff. lin was very grateful and funny. cant describe it.haha. its sad how all this turned out this out, ever since they came. they come for me everyday. they try to take control of me. i hear their voices in my head, they haunt me everyday. they call for me to come and play. i refuse, and they torture me again. they try taking my life. i'm trying to fight back, trying to find a way out. it's not of any use. they're here again they're closing in on me. they call my name. i'm trying to escape. if this be my last fight, let it be.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:53 PM


Tuesday, April 13, 2004

heys. just had some literature play thingy was like so gross. haha. like totally horny. haha. they made like real kisses and everyone went crazy. haha. not from singapore tho. merveen acted as the nurse volunteeed by this funny actor. haha. sick she's so gross. shudders. it was fun and real gross, cos in one part the guy acted as a girl and the other guy was a guy. so yea. it was midsummers night dream and when they died, the guy landed his face in the guy's ahem. haha. like so gross. cos someone said that they wanted romeo to be sexy and it was like totally wrong. haha. like ugh! sick. go ask kim. haha. gosh. my hair's standing. anyway other then that they're cool. haha. like some of the girls were like going GAGAGA. haha. yea. gosh. shu shan says i look like the elephant from sesamene street. and mr tan agrees. damn it. haha. dont know how they know what it looks like either. mr tan says it's called snuffy. and he keeps calling me that. so irritating. ughh. haha. so i decided to get back at him i said " mr tan heard kim ask you to go yu nam hair care right? " haha. he was like laughing and went " shut up and do your work. go back to your sesamene street. " haha. then he actually said he always wanted to go but was afraid someone would see him there. haha. we wanted to get him a mask, and told him he should have went with mr yeo. haha. we said we would get him a Blossom's mask and get mr yeo Bubbles mask. haha. hilarious. o wells. too bad. he just had to shut up and dance. haha. tong: heys. i know you're feeling real down now. just dont know what to do. cos i dont know why. if its about him again, forget it. cos i myself dont know what has gotten into him. and its upsetting myself. you and kim know what i mean. i just wanna remind you i'll always be here for you. i support your descisions. and yea. you need to talk you could always give me a call. like the times i needed to talk i gave you a call. i'll try my best to understand and be the friend in need. but sometimes i may fail but know i''ll always need you there, and i will be here. yea. so take care and yupp. buhbye.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:19 PM


Monday, April 12, 2004

heys. blogging. hai ya. tong keeps bothering me to update. haha. o wells. lala. alot of stuff's happening lately. actually come to think of it. i seriously stink. i suck. but i dont see why he is doing this. arghh! frustrated till my gutts drop out. they are gods. and i'm a demon. oh yea. that came out right for once. no mood to laugh. only during science and art. tong didnt come to school today. sick. kept on calling me. hmm. so you think my phone bill is free? i aint like you, on starhub which means free incoming calls. i call you back and you tell me you called for fun. hopeless. haha. hey joanne discovered the stuff on the wall. haha. on saturday me ant tong went to her house and started writing crap on the wall. like. hmm. we changed RA ROCKS to R(A) rocks, haha. eric wanna eat ice cream. haha. changed like the message. 'life sucks. i wanna slit my wrists. dont wanna live anymore.' to life's sucking up my cock ( tong did that. i'm innoncent. ) i wanna slit my wristband. dont wanna leave anymore chocolate for you. haha. so fun. haha. left a note for her under the bed and wrote on her wall. i depressed. i only wanna talk to chess tong kim and jo. all the rest of the world can disappear. patrick wants kim and jo to stay after school tommorow,and he's telling me to go home and study. pig. hai ya. it's mostly my fault anyways. maybe i should treat the sec ones with respect, call them my seniors. lala. from being the one sec oner to play with the sec twos, i'll become the one sec two to not play with the sec ones. great. i suck. i've given my best but my best aint good enough. i'm hopeless. TONG!

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:49 PM


Wednesday, April 07, 2004

heys. back from a bad day. i'm gonna prove them all WRONG. cos i cant and wont be replaced by some peice of ignorant shit. they dont see that i'll always beat them. hah! you wait and you'll see. that i'm still the queen of the court. haha. *winks*. lala. i'm in the top 12. and i'm gonna be in the top five. i swear. cos i aint letting kim down. no, no. i'm gonna disgrace that bunch of disgraceful people. haha. if that makes sense. eric said i could be the vice captain if i change, and if i dont i guess that that Judy will be. * shudders* YUCK! haha. lol! haha. i punished the sec ones today. and i'm proud of it. i'm sadistic. haha. i made them do pumping on the sizling ground cos that woman didnt understand what was the meaning of " i give you ten seconds to come here. " hah! too bad. you'll just suffer. but its your fault. lala. irritating eric is so darn biased. haha. they can kick the ball. i tell you. he didnt blow a single foul against them! wah lao. jia bao was doing fast break. she hold the ball. i'm telling you. she's the best run with it and shout " hurry up! " haha. guess what patrick was laughing like mad. ( i realised he looks like an indian when he shakes his head. ) oh yea. and guess what. eric gave the ball to the sec ones. " oh. its ok. they're only sec ones." haha. i was so damn pissed i shouted out loud. " oh yeah. sure. next time during competition we'll take the ball and take 10 steps. the ref will give us the ball and say. its ok they're only sec 2." what the heck! so damn idiotic. gosh. i got into damn deep shit cos of mrs chan. my belt was perfectly fine and she sent me to suppiah. damn it. the councillor looked at me and said. " sorry. cant help you. you got picked on. " damn. just happened i got caught by mrs poh for my belt and she got me to stand up and used me as an example. damn! ms chen was like " this isnt at your waist. not even at your hips! its at your butt!" and she whacked my butt in front of everyone. haha. i was laughing like mad. they wanna suspend me cos they say i've got an attitude. say i cant represent the school and stuff. like look at your own people before you speak man. look in the mirror you bloody ugly piece of shit. and if you say i was standing like you and it makes me a gangster, doesnt that make you a gangster too? brainless piece of shit. haha. speechless. some people just dont use their rotten brains. damn it. I've waited all my life to be here face to face. I never knew that I could feel this kinda grace. The way you show me that Your love has washed me clean. Could never be erased, It lives inside of me. Take me to the secret place, Where I can only see Your face, And nothing else would ever feel this way. You take away my guilty stains, The things I've done that I cant change, Its only by the power of Your name. I stand here in this place, See the glory on Your face, I'm taken by the wonder of Your name. I'm desperate for Your touch, Never needed it so much. Coz all i want is You.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:47 PM


Tuesday, April 06, 2004

hmm. you said you were my coach, my mentor, my friend. that's weird. cos friends intend to tell ech other stuff. so you intended to walk out on us, walk out on the people you told you cared for, the people who actually trusted you. the team.? go on leave all of us what has happened to the united team that WAS? know that we're not anyone to you guys anyways. the B- div and sec twos are shit to you guys. Mr pat just loves the sec ones, ms mak's got no time. you're are there one third the time. hmm. let me see. he's killing the passion of the sec threes and saying their losing it. he doesnt realise what he's doing. we know you guys care. you think we wont notice if one of you guys were gone. but you're WRONG. cos we're not some junior. some sec one who come in and have a court. not someone who happily steps in and has three coaches. cos we were there from the start. there for the physical. damn it. used to think we know you. now i know that you guys aren't what you seem. you said we could be honest with you guys cos you'd be honest with us. lies. that's what they are. all of you. heys. haven't blogged for a long tym. got so much stuff around happening. I HATE THE SEC ONES! i want it to be just the B-div, us, the real Pat, real eric, real ms mak. they've changed so much they arent who i know. i want team back! its biaseness i see. o yeah. the sec ones are angels. f*ck it. cos they suck. no i'm not jealous. i just cant stand the way you speak bout them. sec ones this, sec ones that. judy this, judy that. YOU GUYS ALL FORGOT BOUT THE SEC THREES.go away. hypocrites. you guys havent seen the way the sec one's are. just a bunch of wanna-bes. a bunch of sucker ups. urghh! i hate the new you. i hate the new people. i hate all the new stuff. i wish that the sec ones never came. i wish that it'll just be the 16 of us. so what if it's small? i like it that way. cos you wont have changed. cos we wont be fighting. we wont be hating the sec ones. we wont be so divided. cos all 16 of us will be there for training. for each other. so what if there's 20 or 25 people in the team? it aint even a team. cos you know why? i'll never stop hating them. i'm not gonna end up some loner blowing the fucking whistle. i'm gonna play. or maybe not. cos i suck. they dont see how fuckin biased it is to let someone who is never there for training play in the match. look at sharon chio. she sucks. she thinks she's the captain. fuck you. dont look at us like that. dont pretend to be so concerned. turn up for photo taking turn up hoping to play for competition. I DESPISE YOU. I SPIT ON YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU AND THOSE SEC ONES. you guys are not much better. stop laughing when we fucking make mistakes. you even do a fucking decent lay up. judy looks like some bloody ballerina. so damn solo. even if pat makes a joke out of our mistakes. it aint for you to laugh. its for us. fuck it. it aint funny cos you suck more. and we dont need you to cheer for us damn it. just get lost. go. get out of our lifes. hope you run away when there's physical.

The Girl Behind the Screen, 5:56 PM

  

ANNA CHEN JIEMIN
17 JULY 1990
SAINT THERESA'S CONVENT
GUITARIST AND CHILD OF YAHWEH
SINGAPORE
BASKETBALLER
PATRIOT.NOT

WHITE
The One who gave His life for me
My family
My friends
Big brothers and Little sister :D PJLA
Basketball and basketballers
Writing songs, poems
Music
Coffee (Starbucks over Coffee bean anytime :D)
Ben & Jerry's
Carl's Junior
Sushi
Travelling round the world
Photography
Backpacking
Kids
Grey's Anatomy!! :D
Friends Season 1-10!
Reading!!
Happy endings
Hotties and NICE EYES! :D
OBS!

BLACK
Goodbyes
Satan
Broken promises
Back stabbers
Air pollutants
Abusive parents
Abortions

GOLD
Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and they fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise up against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to enquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavillion: in the secret of His tabernacle shall He hide me; He shall set me upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in His taberncale sacrifices of joy: I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me and answer me.
8 When Thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto Thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek.
9 Hide not Thy face far from me; put not Thy servant away in anger: Thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Thy way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait I say, on the Lord.