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Sunday, March 28, 2004
heys. just so fucked up now. so amazingly irritating how fucked up people can get. i wanna say what i wanna say. fuck. fuck. fuck. they shout at you scream blame you for everything that goes wrong, pretend nothing happens and then wonder how come we hate being around them. its not a home, it's just some place where everyone fight it out.
i got a new wallet. haha. quicksilver. today everyone's weird. and i mean like everyone. i dont get why they are so cold to each other. just had a fight with my parents. urgh. disgusting. honestly i dont know anymore. got so much problems unsettled. so much i want to be. what's happening to us? what is it that i feel? chessie! help me. this is just so weird. maybe i shall stop here. yupp. tata.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 10:04 PM
Saturday, March 13, 2004
heys. just came back from efl camp. was pretty fun and educational right jo? haha. o wells. the amazing race was ok, but i hated the educational bit. boring. alvin ng's so darn gay. like seriously. haha. puffed out his chest and said in some gay voice something about being an ugly ducking. haha. gee. mr tan rocks from heaven to hell. he was helping us whenever he saw us. haha. later when we reached back to the camp, me kim bunny and the sucker went to play ball. so fun. me and kim were dunking like mad. haha. i did backslam. yay! mr lim and ms foo. mr lim was pretty ok. had the basic moves and stuff. me and kim vs lw and bunny afterwards and we trashed them flat. haha. right kim? yay! we rock. hah. then eric banned us from playing after that. damn. argh. we went to bathe. gosh the toilet sucks like hell. we saw this ghost gosh. damn scary lor. later we heard someone in the empty toilet singing adelwise. gosh. sick. told chermin and people they were darn scared. later they saw again and they started crying. haha. here's where mr tan rocks again. he started coming up with scientific explainations haha. he rocks man. we were all like hai ya mr tan go away. haha. me and kim realised he was quite muscular. o wells. everyone was angry with eric, ha kept spoiling our fun, we were trying to cheer the scared people up. by playing games and he kept stopping us. he was so totally trying to be funny, kept on mentioning what " please dont pay a visit to our freind in the empty toilet" hai ya. like whatever la. so act cool. 0ooo. me and debbie found a favourite place. haha. its so comfortable to lie on. the basktball court. it rocks and i love it like mad. and so does debbie. haha. early morning jo needed to shit. the toilets were like so sucky. gross. we went back and realised debbie's girlfriend died. she was kinda upset and started crying. i felt so helpless haha. brought her to the court to lie down to cheer her up. i think we went there like 4 times a day. ahaha. cheered her up a little. had morning pt. like so chicken. ten push ups, ten jumping jack and ten sit ups. hmm. i wonder what training is. had bee hoon for breakfast. had fear factor later, and went to do rock climbing. i think darren was so cool haha. his sunglasses rocks. haha. i accidentally said fuck when i dropped and was like its so fucking no grip and everyone was like so shocked. hahas. later went to do the obstacle course and i did it like real fast and the instructor was like whoa! you're a real natural. haha. thanks. the white guy was like you do it just like me. haha. skipped lunch and went for dragon boating. i was staring at the instructor and found her so familiar. she said she was alysia. finally i couldnt stand it i went up to her and asked her if she was from acjc, and she was like so shocked. how you know. turned out she was amy, my sister's best friend. haha. kept on saying she didnt believe i was gummy's sister. so amazing. my team buit the strongest raft and jeanette's raft broke. haha. switched over to falid and i said bye to amy and the instructor was like whoa!~ whats going on. haha. told her and she was laughing like mad. falid and that guy was so cool haha. i debated with him and kept winnig. hah. yay. played dog and bone, then poison ball. they danced for us william hung. it was so funny. ahha. so cool. chessie came and i was like shouting her name from the hall. gary seng stared at me. oops.we went to the canteen and mr tan just finished dinner. he looked at me, look at his plate, smile at me, hi anna. haha. sp i look at him, look at his plate, smile at him hi mr tan. haha. in the end he washed it himself. haha. he was like i'll get you for this. haha. he rocks.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 10:09 PM
Monday, March 08, 2004
heys. haven blogged for a while. been caught up with a lot of stuff lately. everyone's in such a depressing mood. my whole class kept crying on friday. first is my ah ma. sorry yea. o wells. then chermin and people. the whole group kept crying the whole day. cry, cry , cry. you guys take care. i doubt you guys failed. you dont even know yet. yupp. even shu wen started crying. ( yes. the toilet paper councillor. ) sigh. i was really thrilled when we played matches for training. she wasnt that bad after all. i dont know. yes. i know she was the only one there for me. but sometimes when i seriously didnt wanna shout, i wanted to keep quiet. i want to let it all disappear, she gives me a reason to shout. to let it come all back out. maybe its me. i think it is. i just suck. i dont know what to do. sigh. o well. yesterday we went to the christina look alike contest. gem got into the finals. the lightyears guy keong and girl ( kimberly ) was there. he looked so mature. and he had a nice watch haha. o wells. it was really brave of him to let that woman sit on his knee. haha. i won't have. right kwan? you wont have either. trust me. if you saw her size. haha. o wells. there was this transexual guy. it was so gross. but he turned out to be really good. everyone was cheering for him. our whole clique even. and the judges. i'm serious he was damn good. haha. gem and some friend of hers stood up and started jumping like mad. he got into the finals too. it's gonna be at zouk. wonder if my momma's gonna let me go. i dont know. lala. he was seriously irritating. i say what i wanna say. i do what i wanna do with my fuckin peice of paper. even if i wanna throw it right in your face. so what if i was talking. so what if i wanted to work with. you get the fuck out of my life. you dont fuckin own me. cos i dont give a shit bout you. you took him away. you scared him away damn it. he was my best friend. who do you think you are? scoding everyone else. so fucking over protective. dont even bother to find out the truth. ughh. you made her cry. i hate you for that. cos i respect her. you go around tearing the people i care for, the people i need, i trust. i dont care. stop picking on me damn it. who do you think you are. if i wanna eat i eat. if i wanna drink my fucking good coffe i drink it. get out.
damn it. some people think their so big. get me pissed of for nothing. anyways. i'm gonna stop here for now. sorry bout the vulgarities. tata. and tong. it's a woof woof.
The Girl Behind the Screen, 8:39 AM
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ANNA CHEN JIEMIN
17 JULY 1990
SAINT THERESA'S CONVENT
GUITARIST AND CHILD OF YAHWEH
SINGAPORE
BASKETBALLER
PATRIOT.NOT
WHITE
The One who gave His life for me
My family
My friends
Big brothers and Little sister :D PJLA
Basketball and basketballers
Writing songs, poems
Music
Coffee (Starbucks over Coffee bean anytime :D)
Ben & Jerry's
Carl's Junior
Sushi
Travelling round the world
Photography
Backpacking
Kids
Grey's Anatomy!! :D
Friends Season 1-10!
Reading!!
Happy endings
Hotties and NICE EYES! :D
OBS!
BLACK
Goodbyes
Satan
Broken promises
Back stabbers
Air pollutants
Abusive parents
Abortions
GOLD
Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and they fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise up against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to enquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavillion: in the secret of His tabernacle shall He hide me; He shall set me upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in His taberncale sacrifices of joy: I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me and answer me.
8 When Thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto Thee, Thy face, Lord, will I seek.
9 Hide not Thy face far from me; put not Thy servant away in anger: Thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Thy way, O Lord, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait I say, on the Lord.
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